I am so bored.
This has been going on for days. Maybe a week now. Part of it is physical… I’ve been having an exhaustion issue so I just don’t have the energy to do things. But fuck, I am bored as hell. Even staring at my laptop… at my fiction… writing of any kind. My brain is fried.
The kids haven’t had homework for the last week and a half… they’ve been bored after school. Tomorrow is their last day. The boredom is only going to get worse. I know some people are all about the ‘go outside‘ thing but it’s so humid right now it’s disgusting outside. Don’t know how the rest of the summer will be…
The beach is nice and not far but I guarantee the kids will be bored after about 20 minutes. Plus, once school is out, it’s going to be so damn crowded everywhere… ugh. No place to park… or paying a premium to do so. Suck. I know… I’m kind of a hermit. The exception is going to Mom’s (pool)… which we can do some days… but it’s an hour away with no traffic (which is never). We’ll go some days anyway… but not sure it’ll be more than once/week. Maybe we’ll stay over for a night here and there.
My daughter can come up with all sorts of little projects… as can I… but my son is not interested. It was so much easier to entertain them when they were younger! My son can occupy himself with his phone for way longer than I should allow… but even with that, eventually, he’s bored.
Maybe if I was raking in money, we could do more stuff… but you know, unemployment and all, I have to watch the spending. I wonder if I still know how to roller skate. That could be hilarious. Or it could result in injury. We love mini-golf… but not when it’s 90°F. Oh… bowling. I don’t know…
At least they have a karate belt test this afternoon. But I don’t know how to fix me. I’m empty. Even while I’m home alone… which I usually love even if just to write… I’m so bored… and the exhaustion is killing me. I’m totally unmotivated… and I could fall asleep at any moment.
End of whiny post.
Image from the book ‘I’m Bored’ written by Michael Ian Black and illustrated by Debbie Ridpath Ohi
what sandra thinks 
Boredom sucks. And yes, it was much easier to entertain kids when they were younger. I don’t know, man. It’s hard when money is an issue and fickle kids start bitching about doing something. What about free stuff? I assume you’re near/in a large city? Museums, street fairs, etc?
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Museums are pretty far from free. But I can try to get passes from the library… Of course, I’m not even sure they’d be interested. It sucks! Plus if I don’t get out of this whole exhaustion/about to drop thing, I’m useless. If I had money to spend, I’d send them to camp for a week. But the spending doesn’t make sense if I’m home, you know? Plus that doesn’t help my boredom. It’s bumming me out and I don’t need any help with that! I’m just not good at entertaining… even my own kids! How sad is that??
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Google free activities in (insert city). I betchya there’s something pretty cool to do around your neck of the woods. Pick one, pick a day, write on the calendar…in ink…, then make yourself do it. It will likely feel like your made of lead, but I bet y’all will have fun. Don’t even ask their opinion on the matter. Load ’em up and surprise them. You’ll feel so much better simply getting outta the house. 🙂
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I feel like I’m made of lead right now… ugh. It’s a good plan, though! 🙂
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Just wish you felt better. How’s your pain situation?
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Pain hasn’t been bad lately. Thank god for that! I’m not sure but I have a pretty good idea why I’m having this exhaustion, lack-of-motivation, boredom issue. Not sure how to fix it though…
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What do you think it is?
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Medication change…
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That doesn’t surprise me. I thought you were on one you liked?
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I was… but I kind of had a setback and changes were made… not sure if things are going to get better or worse… It’s extremely frustrating. Wish I could just be normal… 😐
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I hear ya’. But, what’s this normal you speak of? 😃
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I guess just… not this fucked up! I’m sick of being me…
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Been there, done that. But, the only thing that can change that? You. You do have the power. 😊
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I don’t know about that… it’s a medical condition… I don’t think I can talk myself out of having it… can I?
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Not necessarily. But you can make yourself fight it a bit, get up, get out, not dwelling. You’re very right, depression is a medical condition. Can’t talk ones way out of having it. Hopefully the meds help, but that med isn’t likely to be the cure-all.
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Sometimes I feel genuinely good. I really need more days like that…
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Think good thoughts. Attitude is important in your day to day mood. Be determined, find the good. Trust me, things could always be worse. 😃
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I know… some days it feels like that’s the direction things are going… worse…
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Don’t let the demon rule your thoughts. You know better….right? I wouldn’t ever say, “What else…..” or “This can’t get worse”, etc. The universe has a way of showing that things can indeed get worse. Please, try to think positively. It really does help the mindset, and vibes in general. 😊
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My brain really struggles to work that way… it’s hard when things already feel the worst, you know? Plus, if I think things could be worse, I worry about that happenings so it makes me feel worse!
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Exactly. I tell my kids…and wife…all the time: Don’t worry about it ’til there’s something to actually worry about. Don’t invite trouble, ya’ know. To me, it’s like a juju thing. I try hard to cast away any bad juju, including from my own head. Blissful ignorance, or simply ignoring reality? Maybe…probably. But we only get one trip. Why make it more difficult on ourselves than this shit already is? 😃
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That’s the stuff I have trouble controlling. When the worry comes into my head, I usually can’t get it out. I’m telling you… it sucks being this messed up!
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What happened to the med that was working well? Thought things were better? 😕
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I don’t know what happened. It’s so frustrating. I question whether it was the med that was helping or if I was just randomly doing better because it kind of ‘wore off,’ for lack of a better way to describe it. I really don’t understand it at all. It doesn’t seem that I’m ever going to have the right thing(s)…
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That sucks. Trying to find the right med, and dose, is rough. Kinda trial and error. Any other options you haven’t tried yet, med wise?
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Barely… and then there are the side effects…
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Yeah, seems that the cure is worse than the disease sometimes. 😕
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The thought just occurred to me. Boredom spelled backwards is moderoB? Well, it appears that I’m bored, too. Today isn’t a good day to not be bored. Humid and hot, so just chill inside with a good book. Tomorrow is another day with more promise. Glass half full, right?
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Definitely staying indoors today as much as possible! Though the sun and the breeze are nice. Hm… I need a refill… to make it more than half full. 🙂
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Its too muggy for outdoor stuff but do you garden? When I started growing herbs, veggies, etc my nieces and nephews couldn’t visit often enough to grow their own stuff in “their space” though they are finicky eaters. It kept them busy and they loved taking “food” home to cook or give away…just a thought.
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Thank you! I’m not much of a gardener. I wish I was… my mom is amazing with that but I tend to kill everything… or it gets eaten by wildlife… lol. It’s something I should try again sometime. A little late this year, though. 😦
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Want to beta read my half assed novel? Ugh! Even though you already read it? (Joking) I have too many changes to make anyway. However, Rob’s right… how about a good book? This weather is hideous. We are about to get the strong thunderstorms that should cool things off and then they’re headed your way!
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I don’t think your novel is half-assed! 🙂 I should just read a book. Lately, nothing holds my interest… and I have a bunch of books I’ve gotten as gifts over the past year and I’ve not read them. I don’t know what my problem is! The gross weather is not helpful. All I want to do is stay inside and find a snack to wake myself up but that’s not good for my thighs. LOL.
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Well maybe quarter assed! Lol! I just have so many revisions to make and I can’t stand looking at it anymore. Oh you should definitely pick up one of those books and give it a shot. Maybe something will grab you.
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I need something to grab me. LOL
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Ha! You mean someone!!!
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Exactly. 😀
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I feel for you with the weather – same across here and everyone just looks like they’ve run back to back marathons through a river of sweat.
As for the kids, have you tried geocaching? Can’t remember if I’ve mentioned it before. It’s treasure hunting using GPS and there are caches hidden everywhere. You can get an app (prob a few dollars) then it helps you locate them. Might appeal to your son if he likes using his phone, gets you outdoors (once it’s cooler) and the containers have all sorts of trinkets in them. Of course, if you’ve heard of it, you’ll know all this!
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I’ve heard of it but only a mention. I could look into that. I hate this weather! It’s so gross I don’t want to do anything… yet I’m bored. Which makes no sense! 🙂
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I think everyone is really apathetic in the heat. We can’t even be bothered to eat – had toast for two nights over the weekend as couldn’t face anything else. We may have supplemented it with ice cream but that besides the point 😉
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My house is cool, thank God… but yes, ice cream has been in play here, too.🙂
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Boredom really does suck. Suck suck suck!!! I seem to be going through this often these days also. Always tired always bored. Roller blading is fun. But in summer sigh😱😱😱 I agree with The V Pub… maybe just stay where it’s cool with a book and maybe DVD’s for the kids?
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I tried to roller blade a few times. I almost broke myself! My kids can’t either… Apparently we are bad balancers… 😀
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Lol don’t say that 😁 I remember I was 12 when my dad gave me a pair as a Christmas gift. I still have marks from injuries I sustained but man it was worth it😂😂😂😂 maybe a day at a theme park on a cooler day?
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I definitely want to take them to an amusement park. Wish they were cheaper like when I was a kid! But yeah… some day with better weather… 🙂
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I wish I could to one. The nearest one to me is 6 hours away 😲
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There’s one about an hour away… another closer to 2 – 2.5 hours away… The one I used to go to every year as a kid is gone, though… 😦
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Mine too😢😢😢😢
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Someone, somewhere told me that boredom was the fuel that keeps our imagination and creativity burning.
I have no idea who that person was, and I’m obviously not listening to them anymore 😉
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Haha… thanks for that. 🙂
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Oh, God, I’m feeling the same! Right now it’s raining like crazy, so loud against the Windows and I’m fighting a stupid upper respiratory infection. Saw doctor yesterday, on augmentin now. But I’ve got a headache and sore throat and the thought of writing my boring fiction isn’t appealing to me. Some bowling alleys here have unlimited summer kids bowling for a flat price. Don’t know if they do that by you or not. Our park district has some free events. Also I think some Regal theaters have free or cheap kids movies if you have those by you. I’m so bored I’ve been playing Candy Crush lately 🙂
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I was just playing Candy Crush… LOL… I’m on level 1489… so um… yeah. I’m so sorry you’re sick! That’s the worst. I’ve got to look into this kind of kids’ stuff. I’m just so bored as unmotivated and exhausted… bleh. I hope things change soon… for both of us!
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I hadn’t played in awhile, now I’m starting over and getting hooked again. Hate that! 🙂 Hope you find lots of inexpensive things to do with the kids this summer. I know it’s a challenge…
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Boredom is terrible, especially when it’s with kids. I’d pack them up for the beach and tell them to get over it while I read a good book.
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I’m definitely going to have to try!
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I wish I had some good advice but what got me out of my last epic boredom streak a few weeks ago was realising that I was fixating on something to compensate for my lack of interest. So I threw myself into writing, watching a TV series etc. Eventually it helped. The best thing is to try hard not to focus on the fact that you’re bored. Easier said than done, though!
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I wish I could throw myself into writing… I keep sitting here at the keyboard staring at a blank page. I don’t know why but I can’t seem to write much of anything. It’s kind of killing me! Usually when I’m bored, I can at least write even if I know I should be doing something else. Right now, I can’t even write… it sucks!
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It’ll come to you eventually! I know all about the blank page of doom. Write whatever dribs and drabs come to you and take a break from it when you need to. Usually when I can’t right, reading something helps, but when you’re bored, the focus isn’t there, so I get that. 💜
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You’re so nice… thank you for your thoughts… 💙
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