the perk. #31 (I know, I’m shocked, too.)

the perk.

I hope you were sitting down. I wouldn’t want anyone to sustain an injury. It has been 109 days since my last perk. I bet you never thought you’d see one again. Yeah, neither did I.

It’s not easy to find the bright spots when there is so damn much darkness fighting to hide them. I know the fucking cliché – look for the good things in every day. Bite me. There are days when there are legitimately NO good things. That I woke up and I’m alive? Fuck… that doesn’t count… because it doesn’t. But also because when things suck so much ass, that’s not even a bright spot… ‘cause a part of you doesn’t even want that… it’s just the start to the hell to come. (I know… my attitude is fucking great.)

I had an appointment this morning. [As is often the case, I’m writing this after midnight, so technically the appointment was yesterday… but that’s irrelevant…] I was worried because I knew it was possible that my healthcare provider was not going to be happy with me. You see, I was kind of self-medicating (no, not with an herbal supplement). Actually, I was self-unmedicating. Some side effects undo all the good. Yet I worried to the point of near panic that she would tell me if I didn’t take it, don’t come back. Seriously, way to blow things out of proportion, sandra’s brain. But she understood… and now we move forward. Good thing #1.

Last week, my son’s second trimester report card arrived. 8 classes, 8 teachers, 8 grades. They were as follows: 97, 98, 98, 97, 97, 100, 100, 100. He’s the best. Good thing #2.

I have realized that even when my hair no longer has its beginning-of-the-day-freshly-showered bounciness, it still looks good. Not to worry, I still have other appropriately bouncy parts. But the hair… it’s always been straight and a bit lifeless. Somehow, it seems to have gotten a life. This probably sounds ridiculous but it’s a great feeling to look into a mirror when you thought you looked like crap only to find out that you still have great hair. A good hair day is pretty powerful. Good thing #3.

I’m wondering if any of you have any idea how fucking adorable and hilarious it is to see an incredibly cute little 9-year-old girl replicate the dude’s dancing from this Mountain Dew commercial…

Well, I’ll tell you… it’s one of the funniest things I’ve seen in weeks. She’s the best. Good thing #4.

Hm. Should I have spread these good things out into multiple posts? Too late now.

Thank you and good night.


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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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38 Responses to the perk. #31 (I know, I’m shocked, too.)

  1. Miriam says:

    Good hair days, smart son, cute kid, I’d say they’re all good reasons to smile. Hugs xo

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  2. Good hair days are the best, sadly I can’t remember my last bouncy barnet moment so enjoy yours!

    Smart son, getting on at school – definitely a reason to be cheerful. Mine has a reserved seat in the detention hall and a worrying fascination with fire 😱

    I hope you continue to find reasons to smile 😁

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  3. They’re are good days where we will see a positive here and there. There are good days where we actually genuinely smile. And there are days that are really nice where we feel semi-normal. But those are rare. The bad days, well, those are the ones that take an incredible amount of energy just to get out of bed. Sure, you’re alive, but you’re damn miserable. I feel you. I really do. I wish I could say things well be better, but I don’t know. Everyone is different in how they process and move on. I’m almost 3 years into hell, but there have been some signs of life and light. A teensy one here, a brighter one there. I’m too stubborn to give up. But some days I have to accept nothing will get done.

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  4. I have no idea what a good hair day is. My hair does whatever the fuck it wants, when it wants, and how it wants. 😃

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  5. Four wonderful things? I’d definitely call that a good day! I am, of course, jealous of your hair… But grateful that you can see mine at all now! 🙂

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  6. Meg Sorick says:

    I love it! Genius and talented kids! Great hair and an ‘easy does it’ at the doc. All good. I always feel like I need to go somewhere when I have a good hair day, they are few and far between. I have two year old baby girl hair. So I have hair envy! Great perks!

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  7. There are some days where having fabulous hair saves me. I get it 🙂

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  8. mandibelle16 says:

    You are right good hair makes a huge difference! Congrats to your son and Im glad your doctor understood. Shoes also help every now and then 🙂

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