not as advertised.

blurIt will come as no surprise
I have overanalyzed
My mind has generalized
My heart’s been demonized
Inside I’ve dramatized
Dreamt and fantasized
Wished my life romanticized
Still my soul does agonize
When my hope is jeopardized
If I could be hypnotized
My racing thoughts paralyzed
No longer terrorized
I could find a compromise
Maybe even improvise
Until I am unrecognized
But instead I rationalize
And continually apologize
Repeating this exercise
That I’ve now memorized
And it makes me despise
Everything I symbolize
My pointless weak disguise
Only serves to emphasize
I’m not as advertised

swash.

©2017 what sandra thinks
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About what sandra thinks

Sandra began writing when she was a sixth grader. She is a teller of stories through poetry, fiction, and tales from her own life. And she thinks too much. Read, think, enjoy, laugh.
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45 Responses to not as advertised.

  1. Marquessa says:

    So powerful Sandra. This reminds of a place I used to live and still revisit from time to time. One day at a day…hugs!💕

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  2. sudershana says:

    Splendous! ✌👍

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  3. This was a fantastic read. It’s true of us all, to some extent, I think. There’s likely very people we each show our true selves to, completely. And only those few people know we aren’t “as advertised”. But that’s one of the things I enjoy about this medium: anonymous courage. 😊

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  4. That’s really good! Very powerful and well crafted. Hugs! ❤

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  5. Halycon Prana says:

    We take you as you are. We wouldn’t want you any other way. Much love.

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  6. That was so marvellous. 😊 This reminds me of how I advertised myself to a certain someone. Love the depths of your lines. 😊

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  7. willowwrites says:

    great rhythm and fantastic job coming up with all those “eyes” sounds – your soul has been now sanit-eyes’d.

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  8. willowwrites says:

    making the lists is have the fun of creating these…cathartic really.

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  9. Meg Sorick says:

    Love the rhyme – the poem itself is brilliant. I am having a tough time expressing myself today. Maybe I’ll think of something more meaningful to say later, but I get it, I totally do. Love to you…

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    • Thanks. Haven’t heard much from you lately… I hope things are going better for you… and that you don’t forget I exist. Are you getting the snow you wanted today? We’re supposed to get some later this afternoon…

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      • Meg Sorick says:

        No actually, things are pretty much the same. Maybe even a little worse. And then there’s just the state of everything in general – politics, etc. I surely don’t forget you exist. I’ve been doing so much talking with H and not solving anything that I’m just sick of it. So it’s not you, love. It’s me. We are getting some snow. Figures, I have an important Dr’s appointment an hour away today. Seeing a pulmonologist about my chronic cough. I’m probably dying… Ugh.

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  10. I liked how you conveyed feeling in the words along with the actual aesthetic of the prose. Loved it.

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  11. magarisa says:

    Superbly written, Sandra.

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  12. magarisa says:

    I forgot to add that I sometimes feel the same way. 💗

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  13. Exquisite writing skills Sandra. It’s mysterious, haunting, and shows us you’re uncertainty. Mystery is very alluring. Well done girlfriend!

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  14. Wonderful. That looks so hard to do and yet it worked perfectly. 🙂

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  15. mandibelle16 says:

    As usual, beautiful poetry Sandra. You’re a very talented writer. How are things going for you? Are you starting to feel better with more light this time of year slowly? How are your kids and the job hunt? Hope you’re well 🙏🏻🌺

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    • Than you, Mandi! I’m doing alright. I do think more daylight is better.

      I’ve still gotten nowhere on the job hunt… still having trouble doing much of anything. I’m beginning to think that’s permanent… that I’m never going to be able to do it.

      The kids are good… although some days I feel like they fight just to stress me out! 😀

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      • mandibelle16 says:

        Well, it seems being a Mom is ‘job’ enough I can imagine. Kids just fight, my brothers when we were younger as well. I haven’t had much luck with jobs either. But I’ve been doing some volunteer writing and such too improve my experience. Summer/Spring will be here soon enough and the kids can go outside right? Have a great week!

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