song of the day. #17 | nye edition

song of the day.

This hellish year that is 2016 will come to an end tonight. Oh, the date doesn’t matter. When the clock abandons 11:59… a huge change… a wave of relief… will not come. But still. The simple fact that my brain is allowing me to imagine a better year ahead is a major accomplishment for me.

I’m sure it’s not a surprise that I don’t have a resolution… such a cliché… total crap. We make changes when we’re ready… when we’re in the right mindspace… when we can. A calendar cannot dictate such things…

But I do have a few things to say as this crap year ends… in my usual uplifting manner. Let’s begin.

What the fuck?

I know life’s not always easy but is it ever? Did anything go my way this year? Fuck if I can remember a thing. Ooh, wait… there was that one day I hit all the green lights on the way to Target. Yeah. Woo hoo. Go me.

My cousin, quite possibly the sweetest, strongest guy I know, is still here. But, dammit, why him? He’s been through so much and now he’s got the fucking cancer that won’t quit.

And I can’t find a fucking job. Maybe if I was looking for an actual “fucking” job, I’d have more success. Why does everything on earth revolve around money? And yes, it does. And yes, it can buy happiness. At least some kinds of happiness. But hell, what do I know? I’m a little unclear on happiness.

My relationship with my husband has become… strained? Weird? I can’t find the right word. It’s not horrible. It’s not miserable. But it’s just… kind of… there. I miss the love (in every sense). Supposedly it’s still there… but it’s virtually undetectable. The less I find it, the less I feel it myself. And loneliness fucking hurts.

The rest of the world? I can’t even write about it. And I’m sure I don’t have to. The world has gone mad.

To sum up…

Fuck off, 2016.

But… I’m trying to have an attitude outside of despair

And I feel that I must quote this whole damn song… (which I love so very much…)

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us, only sky
Imagine all the people living for today

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion, too
Imagine all the people living life in peace
You…

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope some day you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people sharing all the world

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope some day you’ll join us
And the world will live as one

I wish for you, my friends, for whom I am so grateful, a year better than the last.

song of the day

song of the day
Obviously I am not the owner of any rights to this song, this video, or these lyrics… just everything else… which isn’t much… © 2016 what sandra thinks
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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Hawaii where she could learn to surf. She loves music, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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30 Responses to song of the day. #17 | nye edition

  1. Josh Wrenn says:

    Best thoughts to you and your family as the year unfolds.

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  2. Miriam says:

    Yes, good riddance to 2016 and bring on the new one I say. It’s gotta be better. My wish for you is to be happy, to find a job and a sense of peace and contentment. Warmest wishes and hugs to you Sandra xo

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  3. Best wishes to you for a better 2017. We’re all here with ya, and even though not all of us can meet you at the local coffee shop/bookstore/roller rink (just tossed that one in 😀 ) we can send a virtual hug!

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  4. Wishing a wonderful year for all of us! Bring on 2017, I’m ready 🙂

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  5. Good choice. Here’s to better year for you…and the world. We could all use a respite. And getting every green on the way to anywhere is so rare, you have to think somebody’s watching out for you. Keep the faith, man. 😊

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  6. Finally, a song that I know! Although this song always makes me sad. I hope that the new year brings you all the things you want Sandra – less anxiety, a job, a reconnection with your husband. Sending positive thoughts your way! (Sorry I had to end on a cliche!)

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    • At this time of year, clichés run rampant. I have to try not to let my eyes roll too far back in my head lest I fall over. 😀 I’ve heard that before about music I like… kind of dark and sad to others. But it doesn’t make me sad. You know what makes me sad? Music I hate no matter how upbeat… Hahaha 😄 Anyway… Thank you!!

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  7. Lovely song choice. And Happy New Year, Sandra. Hope 2017 brings you some relief and peace and joy and excitement and French Toast 🙂

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  8. Meg Sorick says:

    A wonderful song and a perfect choice to end the year from hell with. Let’s hope for better in 2017. Happy New Year, Love! ❤

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  9. I have always loved this song. It means so much especially now. I wish you peace in this new year and that you find the things that have been missing. xo

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