feeling it.

bumps

This afternoon I read a story I wrote years ago, and for the life of me, I cannot figure out how I ever managed to get through it. It made me incredibly anxious. It’s a good thing – a piece of writing so compelling it affected my psychological state – even when I already knew the ending. But I’m still tense now.

I do love a happy ending. (Well now, that sounds dirty… but I laughed so there it is.) I adore forever and perfect. The story I pulled from my ‘written works crate’ today did eventually arrive at a lovely destination, but traveling the road to reach it was traumatic. The skyscraping highs and plummeting lows… the turbulence… I thought I might actually puke. (What the hell was I going through when I wrote this? Seriously…!)

I want my words to make people feel things. Caring about characters and their story so much that I cry or shiver or feel sick – that’s a huge part of what makes me love a story when I’m the reader. Emotion is essential. I hate and love how anxious I am right now. Do I want to do this to others?

Maybe I do.

Not maliciously, of course.

And hey, who’s to say anyone else would experience the same level of tension I did? I’m a pretty high strung individual. (I know, decaf might be a choice. Just not a choice I’d ever make…)

Any emotion is better than no emotion. That’s what I think. 

But right now… I need to go do yoga breathing to relax.

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy, too. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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3 Responses to feeling it.

  1. Harbour Admin says:

    If you make the reader feel some sort of emotion, you’re doing something right. This is an inspirational post.

    Liked by 1 person

  2. Pingback: feeling it. revisited. | what sandra thinks

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