Dear David,
It’s been a long time, but I still miss you. I still regret losing you.
I can’t put my finger on exactly what went wrong, but the details don’t matter because I think the real problem was timing. Circumstances back then messed things up for us. Where we were in our lives… the challenges we were facing. I wish we’d been strong enough to get through it all together, but we weren’t… or at least I wasn’t. But I don’t think you were either. It was both of us.
I wish we’d met a few years later. If we had, I think there’s a good chance we’d still be together. I met you too soon. Even though it’s hard for me to say this because I’m so selfish, I really do hope you’re happy. A part of me, though, will always wish you were happy with me. You were the one. But you are also the one that got away.
Love,
p.s. — Did you save anything from ‘us’? My heart hopes you did but my head knows you didn’t. I still have the pictures you drew for me and the sculptures you made me. I’ve tried to let them go, but I can’t. A part of me will always love you. You were my best friend… and the love of my life. I bet you don’t even know that…
©2020 what sandra thinks
what sandra thinks 
Nicely written. I like your theme.
I am doing photo prompts this year: https://writingiscommunication.wordpress.com/2020/04/04/the-d-in-2020-a-to-z/
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Wow – powerful letter today! I was not expecting that after the first three. I just want to give you a big hug but ya know – distance and all that 😦
I feel like if I did an AtoZ based on letters, my first one would be this letter. To a different man but ya know, the same type of emotion behind it.
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I know some of my letters will be funny, kind of, but some will be much more serious and dark.
I have great memories but this was hard to write because it makes me so sad…
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Yeah it’s so hard to relive those regrets in our lives. I have a big one. I’m hoping it can fix itself and it might actually happen but guess I just gotta wait and see
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It’s definitely too late for me. Like, in a million ways. I have no hope for anything with him. It would be too painful to even speak to him ever again at this point. And seeing him would break me. Good thing he moved away.
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Oh I’m sorry 🥺
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It’s okay… I [kind of] accepted it a long time ago…
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Still sad even if it’s accepted
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Yes, it is.
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so very sorry…….
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Very heartfelt! Or great fiction, whichever😉
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Unfortunately, it’s real… not fiction. But thank you. ❤
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My guess is that he did…at least for a long time. Timing is often everything, in many facets of life. I hear people say “…things happen for a reason…”, but I don’t always buy that theory. 😕
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I definitely don’t buy that theory because I’ve not had another great relationship since him. Unless it “happened for a reason” means the reason was for me to be miserable. Is that it? Some higher power decided that my lot in life was to be miserable? That I didn’t deserve happiness? Maybe…
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I would hope that’s not true.
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If there is some higher power out there, they have a shit sense of humor.
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I’ve thought the same thing. More than a few times. 😏
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Bittersweet. There is nothing more real than fiction. I think you broke me a little with this one. 💔 Nicely done S!
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Oh my god… I made myself cry while writing it. I can’t even go back and read it again. I have wonderful memories of him, but I can’t think about them too much or I fall apart.
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😦
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ugh…..I feeeeeel this.
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I have a similar memory of the first girl I truly loved. I will always love her even though it was so long ago. The wound will always hurt but gets less raw as the years and decades move on.
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Sometimes, I think this one bothers me more now than it did in years past. Like, it seems to get worse, not better. I don’t know why…
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Timing is so important in relationships and I think we can all relate to lost loves. Beautifully written letter. Weekends In Maine
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Thank you!
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I’m sorry he got away. 😦
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Me, too. I always wonder what if… But I should probably stop doing that!
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What if is a fun thing to write about sometimes though. 🙂
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Oh man… the one that got away, that could have been. An excellent piece of writing, the more so because of the authenticity. I’m sorry that it is though… 😞
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It just never would have worked at the time. It sucks. I do wish I met him about five years later…
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Yeah, timing is everything in relationships… sigh…
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Wow. Proud of you writing this. I know how much you miss him and how important he was to you. XO
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I guess I’ve always had shit timing. I can’t help but wonder if I’d be happy right now if I were with him. But… I’m still me and I have issues that always have been and always will be with me. I probably would have ruined things with him by now anyway.
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