remember me.

hide in hood.Not actually me.


Remember me. I was going to put a question mark, but I decided it’s not a question. It’s a command. I order you to remember me, dammit!

It’s been weeks. More than six of them. This has been my longest absence since I first appeared here on September 14, 2015. [I just looked up that date. I didn’t realize I started so long ago.] In the beginning, I had trouble coming up with post ideas. And now… well, here we are.

I created this blog to have an anonymous place to say whatever the fuck I wanted. Did you know that the day I started, I was particularly annoyed with my husband? That’s what drove me to finally do it. I wanted to bitch about him… to write what I was thinking… to get my thoughts out there—my thoughts that I sure as hell couldn’t share with my husband.

Despite my anonymity, I chickened out. I went with the other reason I always wanted to blog… because I love to write. And now… well, here we are.

I still love to write… I just can’t do it. Not to my liking, anyway. I have some (like, seven) well thought out (but incomplete) fiction ideas. I just can’t seem to… go.

But here I am. Maybe this time, I will be back sooner than six weeks from now.

Oh hell, I didn’t even tell you what has happened since I was last here. Don’t get your hopes up—there’s nothing huge.

I did have a birthday, though. Whoopee.

 

p.s.— All of this embarrassing stuff is still going on, though. But my lips are still sealed. 

         

©2019 what sandra thinks

 

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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51 Responses to remember me.

  1. Good to see you, as always.
    Happy Birthday for whenever it was. I hope the kids were kind to you, even if they didn’t buy you the best birthday present ever. Maybe next year!

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    • Thanks. My birthday was okay. I mean, if it had to happen at all, I guess it was okay. The only present I really want is for my kids to be happy. I don’t know exactly how happy they are, but I do wish they were happier. Maybe if their mother wasn’t a mess…!

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  2. Marquessa says:

    Glad to see you post!💜 It’s amazing how long we’ve chatting here! And don’t worry, I still understand your obsession with that singer SM. 🤣😃

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  3. I’m glad you’re back! We have a similar situation. Two people knew my pen name, and I was writing whatever I wanted… until somehow people found out my pen name. There are few places to hide on the internet. But, these are your thoughts and feelings. and no one should judge you for having them. I enjoy your posts, and I look forward to your next ones. ❤

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  4. I will remember you, will you remember me. I think that is how the song goes. Welcome back. Hang in there.

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  5. Ogden Fahey says:

    You write pretty good 🙂 Xx

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  6. I certainly hope it’s not 6 weeks before we see you again. I hope you’re doin’ ok. 😊

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    • When I make an appearance, I always think I’m really back… but then the harsh realities of my life and my mind take over and I end up back in hibernation.

      I was wondering if I’d hear from you or if you just thought I turned out to be a shit friend! Happy to see you. 🙂

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      • Hahaha! You’re not a shit friend. We all have a life outside of this realm. Sometimes it needs tending to. We’ll leave the light on for ya’ though. Don’t be so long. 😊😊

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        • Oh, rest assured, I have no life… nothing other than the mundane to deal with. I wish I was busy with all kinds of happy, joyful, fun things, but I don’t have things like that in my life. No matter how much it shouldn’t be true, life sucks without money. The more I try to stop thinking that, the more I see how true it is. I need to go try to stop crying now. Ugh. This is why I disappear.

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  7. Welcome back! Happy Birthday! Lord, I’m in a slump myself! What’s going on!?!?! Lol

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  8. simplywendi says:

    wishing you a happy belated birthday! welcome back Sandra.

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  9. Monique28 says:

    happy to see you back I was like maybe she got her life together now I have to get mine. It started off good but then summer hit today and someone said we had 6 months left in 2019 and I was over it already. Happy late Birthday hope you got to eat cake and not be judge that you had 2 slices really 3 but who’s counting …

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  10. mydangblog says:

    Oh, I always keep you in my reader, sure that you’ll make an appearance–happy you did!

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  11. Meg says:

    Good to see you as always. I can’t believe 4 years has gone by since we started blogging. Ah, I was so optimistic and excited back then! Anyway, hoping you’ll stick around. Hope summer’s going well for you!

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    • Me too… well, excited maybe. I’ve never been optimistic! I keep thinking I’m going to be back here but then something stops me. I can’t really figure it out. Hopefully I will find some way to get motivated. It’s good to see you, too!

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      • Meg says:

        It’s probably a lot to do with falling out of the routine. I’m finding myself in that boat right now. I’ve really slacked off posting regularly. We are in mid move too so that’s a good excuse!

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  12. Bill says:

    I did remember. And wondered. But now, here you are. It’s a good thing. 🙂

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  13. Hi, happy belated birthday! Lots of changes for me this summer so far and they make ideal excuses not to work on my fiction! Miss you, I check almost every day to see if you’ve posted!

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  14. I’ve missed you and reading your blog. Of course I’ve been MIA too quite a bit but I get it and I have a feeling everyone else does too. No worries, we’re all still floating around or hiding somewhere. Hugs!

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    • Aww… thanks! I don’t know what’s wrong with me… I just can’t seem to get in the headspace to write. I’ve even had dreams and awakened with fiction ideas, but when I try to write… nothing!

      And I know.I owe you an email. I even had a reminder on my phone. I will write soon… xo

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  15. Happy Belated Birthday!! ❤

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