Yesterday, I was supposed to write my Y post. I didn’t. You might think I waited intentionally so I could use ‘yesterday‘ as my word. I didn’t. Just thought of that now.
Yesterday, I went to the chiropractor. I wish his adjustments improved my pain long term. They don’t. They barely help in the short term. Why do I continue to see him? Every time I go, I ask myself that question. Then I go back anyway. I’m an idiot. I’m just wasting money. If I skipped that co-payment three times, I could pay for a massage instead. And maybe I’d do that if I had any idea where to go for a massage.
Yesterday, I realized that my back pain is getting worse and nothing I’m doing is helping. I cried for a long time because of pain and fear of my future pain. I’m scared.
Yesterday, I made ‘healthy‘ Chicken Marsala for dinner. Tonight, I don’t have to cook because we have leftovers. Yay!
Yesterday, my kids moved up a belt in karate. Maybe they can defend me when I’m unable to do so myself due to back pain. And overall laziness.
Yesterday, I wondered what the fuck I was going to write for Y… and for Z.
p.s.— Today, I slept too much. I had coffee. I ate a banana. I forgot to eat again after that. It’s 5pm. I’m a mess.
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what sandra thinks 
Yesterday…all my troubles seemed so far away… 😕
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Oh, but they didn’t seem far away at all. They never do…
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😕😕
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There you are, you’ve achieved Y and Z.
Yesterday, and the ZZZZZZZZZZ too much!
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I actually came up with something for Z… nothing very positive, I’m afraid.
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I stopped going to the chiropractor as I didn’t think it was helping me after several months. I need to go to the osteopath for an adjustment soon. Glad you have leftovers for dinner, us, too! I am too tired to cook lately…
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I keep feeling like I should stop. But whenever I go, I seem to be a mess and there’s always something (usually several somethings) for him to adjust. Does that mean I should keep going? Or should I stop since those adjustments aren’t ‘fixing’ anything? I guess the problem is that with my particular case, nothing can be fixed, so I’m at a loss as to what I should do.
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I don’t know either. I have mild scoliosis and arthritis in my spine but on an everyday basis, that doesn’t bother me munch and his adjustments didn’t seem to make any difference. So I stopped.
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I also have (what I think is mild) scoliosis and some arthritis. But I have constant pain. Maybe my body thinks I’m older than I am. I should probably stop with the chiropractor. I think part of it is guilt because I’ve known him for almost 20 years.
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Have you ever tried a TENS unit? A friend of mine said she tried one for her sciatica pain and it really helps. I guess they’re much less expensive now, too.
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I have one. I haven’t used it for a long time. It never really made a noticeable difference in my pain. It sucks because I’ve tried pretty much all of the suggestions but nothing has helped. I just have to live in pain.
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Have the doctors ever diagnosed the cause of your pain?
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The scoliosis and the arthritis…
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I’m sorry the chiropractor isn’t helping. And yes, you should stop if it’s not making a difference. Try massage and if you can find one, an acupuncturist. When spinal adjustments aren’t enough, there are other things you can try. Take it from the former chiropractor!
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In my mind, if he finds anything at all to adjust, maybe I should keep going. But it never makes a difference, so probably not, right?
The problem with massage or acupuncture is that they are not covered my insurance at all and they are expensive. Even if I had a massage, it would be a one-off. I wouldn’t be able to make it a regular thing unless it was maybe 3 or 4 times a year. I doubt that would help.
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I don’t know what they charge for massage in your area, but if you had a copay for the chiropractor that you weren’t paying… you might be able to go more frequently for a massage. The thing with adjustments is sometimes it’s ‘helping’ in ways that aren’t obvious. But your main concern: pain relief isn’t being addressed so I would see if something else worked for you.
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It would be around $100 for a massage. I mean, you have to tip them, too, right? I always have. Jeez, I wish I got tipped for parenting. The copay I’d save is $35… so about three of those gives me a massage. That would compare to about every three months. Other than feeling good and relaxing me at the time, I don’t know that massage would give me any long term benefit by going four times a year. My mind tells me massage is a luxury so I feel a lot of guilt spending money for one.
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Congrats to your kiddo on moving up a belt in karate! You should look on Yelp & read reviews for massage places. 🙂
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I always wonder if Yelp reviews are real… or are they just fake ones written by the business itself? But I will try that. 🙂
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I used to write Yelp reviews & I am not fake LOL. I also had a meet up with other “Yelpers” who were real. 😉
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Good to know!
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