I was just thinking | q/question #atozchallenge

I was just thinking | whatsandrathinks


I question everything. Every single decision I make. And it’s not just big decisions… it’s every little thing.

Shopping is the worst. I spend forever questioning whether or not to buy things. I have stared at a shirt (or maybe a pint of ice cream or a lipstick) for fifteen minutes trying to come to a decision. And even when I do decide, I question that decision… and usually change my mind ten times before I finally do something. And even then, I regret my decision. But if I return said item, I question that, too. Was that the wrong decision? Should I have kept it? And finally… should I have left the damn house at all?

Oh, speaking of leaving the house, that’s another thing I question. I think, hey, I’ll go somewhere but I question whether I should because I might spend money I don’t have or I might take too long or whatever other craziness enters my mind. But I should get out of the house. But I should do things at home. But…

I’m tired of questioning everything. I wish I could be confident in my decisions. Damn, at least the little ones.

 

p.s.— I don’t know if I should post this. 

p.s. 2— I realize I am a few days behind. I’m working on it…

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About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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31 Responses to I was just thinking | q/question #atozchallenge

  1. Halleluja! I’m not the only indecisive being in the world. We could be twins separated at birth. LOL! 😁

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  2. aandj8804 says:

    Yes. This.
    This is a really fun A-Z theme! And I totally agree with your thoughts in this post.
    Thanks for choosing to share. I think, in this case, you made the right decision. 🙂

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  3. Give yourself a time frame of 10 minutes for a bit. Then set it at 5 minutes. Good or bad. Then live with it. 😃

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  4. gigglingfattie says:

    I’m indecisive too, maybe not as much as you’ve described here but definitely indecisive! About so many things!

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  5. emotionsoflife2016 says:

    I question everything as well Sandra. It is strange at times that I even question why I question. When I was younger, I used to think I was broken because I often found myself lost in thought, but yeah…..
    Anyhow, I am glad to know I am not the only one that question things. Stay awesome!

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  6. Audrey Writer-Geek says:

    I agree with setting a time frame for yourself. Sometimes overthinking can lead to making things worse. I find it helps to make a list in the morning of everything that must be done that day and work from there.

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  7. Hira says:

    By any chance, Are you a Libran? I don’t believe in this-sun-sign-that-behaviour but I certainly know whom to blame for my indecisiveness 😀

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  8. Epi B says:

    Questioning things is good! I agree, it may slow you down (I’m also still at q in the a-to-z challenge, so I feel you).

    And hey, maybe the rest of the world is just going to fast!

    It’s the ones that are certain about everything tha really scare me 😉

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  9. Why do you think that is? Do you not trust your judgment or is there something else?

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  10. Good decision! Well done.

    Like

  11. TiaWojo says:

    Hahaha, you remind me of my mom. She’s made pasta, no less than a Thousand times in her life, and she still takes, atleast a half hour to make a decision, in the tomato sauce aisle.

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  12. Hunida says:

    I am the same way!! I can’t make decisions for the life of me & when I do, I always think it was the wrong one or wonder if I had chosen the other wah. My boyfriend always yells at me to “just pick!” & I always say “IDK!” then, when I finally do decide, he’ll be like “couldn’t you have just said that?” & I’ll be thinking “how?! When I JUST decided” LOL.

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  13. Monique28 says:

    i’m the same way It’s that i’m the type to except whatever I choose so if it’s bad i’ll take whatever come with that so I take my time way out the pros and cons some ppl say i’m crazy and should just know but do you really know from the moment you wake up will that one decision change your like forever will it be for good or bad. Then when I do pick my anxiety gets the best of me . So i’m learning if something happens that i don’t like i try to change it if I can’t i accept it and make it in to a way that will work for me if not i’ll deal with it until it’s done

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