[This is not me. Just FYI.]
I really need everyone to stay the fuck out of the kitchen while I’m making dinner.
I wonder if I should try to come up with one sentence, not unlike the one above, for every letter of the alphabet. And there’s my A-to-Z theme.
But seriously. What would I even call that theme? “I’m a total bitch!”? “Don’t test me!”? Or just use the title of this post? “I was just thinking…”? Hmm… I may be on to something.
I did come up with a few [other] ideas. It’s a miracle, really. I’ve begged for suggestions… here… on twitter… but nothing speaks to me. And if I’m going to do 26 posts in a month, the idea needs to speak to me.
I will, however, let you know if anything literally speaks to me. Like, voices of unknown origin. Because that would be totally fucked up.
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what sandra thinks 
Voices of unknown origin sounds cool. ❤
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I suppose those unknown origins would probably not be so mysterious… they’d probably come from somewhere in my own head…
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I like the notion of having an argument with voices of unknown origins. With my luck, I’d pick a fight with the ghost of lottery luck.
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I feel that it would turn into me arguing with myself. Somehow, I lose those arguments. How is that even possible??
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It happens. I argued with myself once, and we haven’t spoken since.
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It’d probably be best if myself and myself weren’t on speaking terms. Unfortunately, I can’t get either of them to shut up!
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Yeah, it’s best to walk away. I got so mad that I keyed my car. It didn’t work out well for either of me.
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“Either of me” … hahaha 🙂
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Keep looking, Gorgeous! I am sure you’ll find something that’ll inspire you all month long 🙂 You still have time!! xx *fingers crossed*
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Thanks… I hope I find something. I might have to resort to something as simple as one sentence. I’m not sure I can handle more than that. Writing doesn’t come easily for me anymore. 😦
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Inspiration is like an artist muscle. It needs a gradual work up to grow bigger. Maybe you could start and A to Z Challenge, where you start with only a few words, and make the posts longer and longer, every day? Just an idea…
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I like that idea. I think if I do this, it might be random. Some longer posts, some short and simple. I think maybe it will depend on the day. I just need to do *something*. I’ve been stuck in a hole for the last few months. Isolated and just… sad.
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I’m trying to think up a theme myself. The well has been stingy!
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I’m having lots of trouble this year. It doesn’t help that I’ve barely been blogging. Trying to get myself back here…
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Same but I don’t want to give it up
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Me, myself, and I, think it is vastly overrated, this thinking lark. It just leads to chaos.
There’s your title: “Chaotic curses.”
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Hmm…
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I like the “I was just thinking…” idea. Lots of freedom in that! And, unless the dishes fly across the room or something, don’t sweat the voices. 😃
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Not worried about flying dishes. I doubt my house is worth haunting. When I die, I want to get the fuck out of here!
I guess the question is… do people really care what I think about? There is a lot of freedom, though. You’re right. I wouldn’t feel any pressure for posts to be long… or even for them to be short. I can post whatever the hell I want. Of course, I could be doing that right now and I’m struggling. It’s amazing that I posted today… only six days since my last post…
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You just need a little nudge, that’s all. And I think you’d find out most who read a rant will agree with said rant. Guarantee you’ll get like-minded responses, thus opening up conversation, thus bringing you company, thus improving your mood, thus inspiring further inspiration, thus……
Too much? 🤔
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No… keep going. I’m hoping this ends with me and my true love on our own private island living in sin.
😛
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Sounds like a new reality show. 😏
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I’ll do it! Seriously, I’m in. Find a producer!
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Can’t be that hard. Shit, everybody seems to have one.
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I know. But I’m not beautiful (or young) enough for tv…
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Hahaha! You’ve seen Honey BooBoo, right?
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Actually, I’ve only heard… I stay away from reality tv. But if offered enough money… I don’t think I would refuse.
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Oh, hell no! I’d do ANYTHING to expedite retirement! 😃
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A few weeks ago, my daughter asked me if I was retired. God, I am such a loser.
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Hahaha! Well, work is overrated. It really fucks with my chi. 😜
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But I am beyond broke. My life sucks.
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I hear ya’.
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That sounds like a great idea! “One sentence observations”! Yes!
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I have to think more about it. Maybe it’s too broad. It’s kind of a non-theme. But maybe that’s what I need.
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Maybe a non-theme is the best thing for you? It’s easy and vague enough that you shouldn’t feel pressured to stick to something rigid and it’s simple enough that it won’t take a lot of time each day.
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I agree with that. I can’t deal with any pressure! Well, not any more than I already put on myself…
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Haha yeah! a vague topic/semi-theme is a good choice!
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I like the one sentence I was thinking idea. Short and it can go a lot of directions. And some might give you ideas for future posts!
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It might work. I think I should try to come up with a few for some of the letters and see how I feel about it. But I’d like some to be spur-of-the-moment, too. I’m sorry I haven’t been around much but I think of you. How are you doing? Hugs ♥
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I’m okay. When I think too much about the past or the future I am just so sad — or terrified that I’m alone again. So I just try not to think. I’m selling the house so packing up to put things in storage and move in with oldest son for awhile. They are sweet and have tons of room. Then I’ll do something else I guess.
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Thinking is the enemy. Too bad it’s so hard to turn it off. I’m glad you have your family. And it’s good that you have things to do. Boredom is the other enemy! xo ♥
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So true! I’m still having trouble getting inspired to write but I’m trying!
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what do u see when u look in the mirror?? Maybe with spring creeping up on us get a new hairdo or a colour put on 😊😊😊😊 That usually gets a lady to feel good on the outside which radiates inside. The brain needs endorfins running thru the body….some vitamin d and/or some sun🌞
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In the mirror… I don’t see anything good except maybe my hair and my eyes. But they are sad. Always sad. I see someone overwhelmed and drained. Weak. I don’t really like myself at all. Oh… and I take vitamin D! 🙂
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Good on the vitamin D hun☺ We gotta find a way to make u happy once again ( with or without chocolate🍫😉)
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I really wish we could find a way. But honestly, I’m not sure I’ve ever been truly happy… except for birth to about age 10…
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see hun…theres a start…what happened after 10….try it…and dont 4get to change the ending to what u want…what makes u happy😊
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I think once I got past 10 or so, I started to make bad decisions and mistakes. I hate who I became… and have hated myself ever since. I don’t know how to fix things because I don’t really know what would make me happy. Not really. Other than some unrealistic “happily ever after” notion, I don’t know what I want.
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Hi dear Sandra👋👋 How r u today ?
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Hi… So sweet of you to ask. I’m alright. Still sleeping too much to escape my life… to escape being alone. I keep trying not to do that. How are you?
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Had a horrid migraine since friday…now its sitting behind my eyes and into my temples….kinda emobilizing 😩😩😩😩 but all in all alright …..thank u for asking dear one 😊
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Aww I’m sorry! I hope you feel better soon. ♥
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I’m not too worried about it….I just want u to feel better
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I do, too. I hope someday I will…
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You will if u help urself and don’t give up just yet .Remember there is a whole world out there not just what u see trapped in the box ♥🌺♥
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I need to figure out how to get out there and help myself. I struggle with that. I guess I feel safer or something in the box…
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Yes…you fear change or the unknown. This is quite common. People like to feel safe and in their comfort zone. Try to do things that u have never done. Dont give up on urself💝 Self love is so very important hun
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I have never had that. How do you learn to love yourself? How can you force love for anyone? Even yourself?
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You have to love urself b4 you can love anybody else. Or else you are an empty vessel with nothing to give
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I guess that’s my problem, then. I am empty. I’ve never loved myself, so does that mean I’ve never loved anyone else??
Everyone always says you have to love yourself… but no one ever tells me how.
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I like my eyes…i think im funny…i like my feet….i can wiggle my ears…i try to write poetry…i love my shoes…i am a great person….kind to animals….stuff like that Sandra. Those r some of the things i like/love about myself. And once upon a time u loved ur husband. U married him 😂😂😂😂😂 I think that u just lost urself along the way. Gave ur time to ur husband/kids/family. U let that consume u and u forgot about urself along the way. YOU have to take care of YOU…nobody else will right? Then u can learn about urself again and love urself😘💕
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For starters, I don’t really think I ever loved my husband. But that’s another story. I do have things about myself that I like, but they are few. And they are so darkly overshadowed by the things I hate about myself that I can barely see them. And they all come with a “but” attached. I think I’m a good writer, BUT I’ve been having trouble writing for months… well over a year, even, and nothing I write is good anymore… and it’s not making me a living or anything.
I also feel like, yes, I do give my time to caring for others but I find myself wondering… why isn’t anyone giving their time to care for me? Maybe it’s selfish or asking too much… but I just wish someone would care for me. Obviously, I need help with that…
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I care for you sis☺
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I like this idea, leaves the door open to a ton of possibilities. I hope it fires up your creative spirit for more writing. I am glad you’re going to give the challenge a go!
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I need to make a final decision asap! I’m a bit worried since I’ve struggled to post much lately, but I’m hoping this will help. I definitely need the distraction…
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Yes! I hope it gets you back in the routine!
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I hope you are able to get this A to Z challenge done, Sandra! ♡
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Thanks… I hope so, too! ♥
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I hate when someone else is in the kitchen while I cook. I have warned people before… “Get out, or I’ll add something you don’t like into the pot.” – “Don’t disturb the process.” – “You should have seen the last person that stood too close to me when holding a knife.”
Yeah… I own the kitchen when I’m cooking. LOL! 😊
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It’s like, I turn around and someone is standing there and it’s all I can do not to yell, “get the fuck out of my way!” But I don’t. And then they move over… but right in the same direction I need to go. Oh man, it’s so frustrating!
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I hear that!!! 😖
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