Dear Diary,
I love when Ethan sleeps in my bed. Even now… when I’m awake and he’s not. I like to watch him sleep. Sitting here… leaning against the pillows while he sleeps beside me. I love watching him. Is that creepy? Hmm… maybe I’ll keep that to myself.
Last night when I thought he was asleep, I picked up my journal. I was about to open it and start writing, but he grabbed it out of my hand. Not asleep. ‘What’s this?’ He smiled because he could tell by the look on my face that I didn’t want him to take it. ‘Hey! Give me that…’ I started crawling over him to get it back but before I could reach it, he wrapped his other arm around me. I couldn’t move… and he was really curious. ‘You are blushing…! What am I holding??’ I totally lied and said it was nothing. But he knew. And he didn’t want to torture me so he smiled and gave it back… reluctantly. ‘I still want to know what’s in there…’
I was quiet for a minute… but then I opened it… and handed it to him. ‘You can read a few pages. Just a few!’ I smiled and he laughed at how insistent I was. Just a few. ‘Are you sure?’ I nodded to him. He took it from me and I rested my head on his shoulder while he read.
After the fifth entry—I know it was the fifth because that was the one where I went on about his sexy whispers and cute drawings and perfect sense of humor—I took my journal from him and tossed it onto the bedside table. And I knew I was blushing again. But now, he was, too. ‘Mr. Hottie, huh?’ Oh my God. I hid my face against his chest. ‘I don’t know why I let you read that…’
He made me look at him and when I did, he kissed me. ‘I love that you let me read it.’ I didn’t say anything. But he had more to say… he teased me. ‘You liked me…’ I nodded and smiled. ‘I still like you.’ He smiled, too. ‘I didn’t know… I was afraid I was stuck in the friend zone.’ I told him I had the same fear… and he seemed surprised. ‘Really? But the drawings… messing around in class… the infirmary… the library? You must have known…’
But I didn’t know… not until he finally kissed me. I’m an idiot. ‘I know now…’ I kissed him. And he rolled me over onto my back and kissed me again. Then he whispered to me… because he knew how much I would love it. ‘I hope you’re not tired… I’m not ready to let you sleep…’
And we didn’t sleep. Not then… not yet. I’m sure that’s why Ethan’s still asleep right now. We were up late. I’m still tired, too, but I wanted to write about last night.
And I’ll write more later… but I have to stop for now…
Ethan’s awake and he’s pulling me back to bed.
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‘Dear Diary’ is fiction based on actual events.
Any similarities to your college life is purely coincidental.
Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.
©2018 what sandra thinks
what sandra thinks 
I think you did a fantastic job with this challenge. Great job. 😃
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Thanks… I have no idea what I’m going to write now. I hate endings… even the end of a challenge…
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Can you just continue on with this story?
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They’re together now… I’m not great at writing anything other than the romance build-up kind of stuff. I wouldn’t know what to write that would keep the story interesting. Hell, I feel like this should have ended after V…
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Hannah getting the crabs might be a good start. 😃
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I do not have the experience or knowledge to write such things. 😛 Also… ewwwx
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Hahaha! I have no knowledge of such things either, by the way. But, if anyone serves them, it’s her. 😃
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Wonderful writing Sandra
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Thanks so much!
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Woot Woot the challenge is finally over and you did one awesome job!!!!! 🎉🎉
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Thanks! 🙂 I’m glad it’s over… but, then, I’m not glad, too, because whenever a story ends, I feel empty. Like I’ve lost my friends (the ‘characters’…)… Not sure what happens now…
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Exactly why I left mine at a cliffhanger. I know it was supposed to end today. But I couldn’t part with those characters. I still have one more post..
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I feel like I could have ended at V… and it probably would have been a better story if I had ended there. But I couldn’t let go… because of the challenge and because of the characters… who aren’t even all fictitious…!
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I’m sure I like the ending the way it is.. ending it at V would be good but at Z it all ties up!
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I really wanted to have him read some part of the diary… I liked that idea when I finally came up with it… so that worked out for z… 🙂
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I personally loved that part. It was so cute and so real. Sometimes just sometimes like this it’s ok to not let go..
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Yay! Ended very nicely! I think in May you should write the downfall of Hannah! 😈
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Thanks!
I don’t think I have it in me to write the Hannah thing. I can only write the sappy romantic stuff. I’m useless with anything else…
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Ha! Well you probably need a little break anyway! The challenge is tough!
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I was fine with this challenge until W X Y Z. Story could have ended nicely at V…!
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Still, your last four entries were icing on the cake!
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I guess.
I do hate when something like this ends because I don’t know what to do with myself now. It’s like this was my ‘job’ for the past month. More than a month, really, because I started writing in March…
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Maybe there’s another challenge for May or June coming up. Or what if you challenged yourself to Fiction Friday again? It’s less pressure (only once a week) and the story could end whenever you wanted it.
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I would like to do Fiction Friday again… but I think I need to have something already in the works… at least some sort of outline or plan. Right now, all I really have are some notes that would all be story beginnings… but nothing after that.
I should be one of those people who gets an outline from someone else and just does the writing part because I can never come up with interesting plots… I’m too simple and predictable… I make it too easy, I think…
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You don’t have to jump right in this week. April was busy! Work on some of the stories you have started and then begin FF. In the meantime, post some older material again. You have lots of new followers that probably never saw the early stuff! And your early stuff is really good!
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I guess I could post some old stuff. I’ve done it before. I just feel like that’s cheating… lol
I think part (most?) of my problem is that my life is so messy yet boring right now that I have little inspiration. I can come up with one scene and then… nothing.
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Just write one scene then. One could lead to another … 😀
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I can try. I’m not feeling good about writing at the moment. I’m too sad. I don’t think this injection is working… my back hurts… and I think I’m going to have this pain for the rest of my life. I tried to be hopeful. I really did. I still keep telling myself it might get better… but it hasn’t. Why can’t something just work for me, you know? I’m tired of my life. Usually fiction helps me escape it but it’s not strong enough… not lately.
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Damn… I guess there’s still time for it to kick in though, right? I forget how long its been. But still, I can understand why you’d be worried. Ahhhhh… I wish I could help somehow!
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I had it done on Friday… so it’s only day 3. The office called today to check in. They do that. The PA sounded like it was perfectly normal for me to still have pain… because it can take days to kick in. I don’t know… I’m just losing hope. 😦
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Not yet! 🤞
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What a great ending! I love how you let him read the journal. Sigh.
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Thank you! I was really proud of myself for coming up with that idea. Last night. LOL
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Fiction is hard to do for a month like that. Great job!
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Thank you ♥
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Pity there are not 40, or more, characters in the alphabet. I would happily enjoy much more of this. Well done Sandra!
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Thanks… But I’m not sure what else would even happen if I had to go on longer. I already feel like it went on a little too long…!
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OH GUSH!!!! I loved this story, Sandra. LOVE LOVE LOVED!!! Such a great story. It`s totally purple (which is apparently the new word for awesome…spread it around)
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Thank you so much! You’re very kind. I don’t think ‘purple’ works for me for ‘awesome’ because I don’t like purple! Haha 😃
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You are the 2nd person I have told about the purple thing and the 2nd person to say it wont work because they don’t like purple hehe. One of my kidlets started it on Thursday haha! Its not really a thing.
But seriously – awesome story!!!
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Thanks… 🙂
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Yay! Wonderful happy ending, I like that Ethan got to read what we have read through the month. Great story and style, well done on reaching the end!
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Thanks so much! I did like my idea of having him read some of what she wrote… that came to me at the last minute!
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“AND SCENE!” *in my Jack voice from Will and Grace* 🙂 I loved that “you” shared the diary with him! And this line “I hope you’re not tired… I’m not ready to let you sleep…’”…now, what woman would not want to hear that from a handsome hottie?!
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I think that’s what saved it for me — when I came up with the idea that he reads the diary… because before I thought of that, I had no good way to end this… and really thought I should have stopped at V.
There are lots of things about Mr. Hottie that I wish I had in my life right now…!
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…well, I LOVED that she felt safe enough to share that with Ethan. The reader knows that there will be a happy ending for them!
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The reader knows that there will be a happy ending because I wrote it and I’m super predictable!
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Predictable is good. I like predictable. 🙂
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I can’t seem to be any other way… maybe this is why you like me… 🙂
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it’s more because you’re more like my sister from another mister! 🙂
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🙂 ♥
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Wonderful! Thank you for writing and sharing. Really excellent!
Jayden R. Vincente
Erotic Fiction Writer
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I’m happy that you enjoyed it! Thanks so much for reading along.
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Dang!
Congrats on completing your A To Z Challenge. I enjoyed reading your story, er, diary.
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Thanks so much! Makes me happy to know that you’ve enjoyed it. 🙂
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This was a beautiful story, Sandra. And I absolutely loved that last line. 🙂
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Thank you! I am so glad you enjoyed it. It was fun to write… and really made me want to be back in college!
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You should write more of this series, if you want to of course. I really liked all of it and yay for the happy ending! ❤
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I am all about the happy ending. ♥ I’m sure it’s terribly predictable but I can’t help myself. I did enjoy writing this (until I got stuck for a few days)… but I need more plot ideas if I’m going to continue… my brain is a mess at the moment…
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Exceptional job on this challenge. I absolutely loved it. I’m sad it’s over now. Thank you for this. It is so much better than watching stupid TV and gives me a break from real life and helps me escape my problems in life into Sandra’s college days. What’s next? Can’t wait!!!! Hugs!
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I don’t know if anything’s next. I’m amazed I was able to write this because I am so empty… I have nothing else. I know it’s disappointing… I’m sorry. I really wish I could write!
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