dear diary | x – xoxo #atozchallenge

Posted on 27 April 2018 by what sandra thinks

Dear Diary,

My God, Chemistry was torture. But I’ll get back to that.

When I told Ethan to wait… when I stopped him… I told him why. ‘I don’t want to be that girl…’ He knew exactly what I meant. ‘You’re not… and I don’t want to be that guy…’ But he didn’t stop kissing me… he barely took his lips from my neck when he whispered to me. ‘So we’re on the same page, then?’ I had to see his face. And when I did… God, the look he gave me was so perfect I couldn’t resist him. ‘Same page… yes…’ And then we were kissing again… and touching and pulling at each other’s clothes.

You know when you build something up in your head for so long in such detail… and then reality doesn’t measure up to your imagination? That is not what happened with Ethan.

I was a little nervous. It wasn’t what we were doing… it was who I was doing it with. I have full confidence in my… abilities where this particular skill set is concerned. I don’t have as much experience as Hannah… but who the hell does? (Okay… probably Dylan.) But this was different. It was Ethan. Mr. Hottie.

I think he could tell I was nervous. Maybe he was, too. Maybe that’s why he wasn’t in a hurry. Every move was sweet and slow and beautiful… well, at first. He was very… attentive. Not like most college guys. Even the second time… he didn’t rush anything. It was just… beautiful. I can’t stop thinking about it… about him.

Eventually, we must have worn each other out because I remember kissing him… and then it was morning. When he woke up, he slipped out of bed and got dressed. He thought I was still asleep. And for a split second, I was really scared that he was ditching me. But he didn’t leave. He sat on the bed near me, touched my face, and kissed my forehead. I had to open my eyes. I wanted to see him. He smiled and kissed me again… my lips this time. And he told me he’d see me in class… which was in an hour.

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When I walked into Chem, Ethan was already there… staring at the door as I walked in. I couldn’t stop smiling. As soon as I sat down, he took my hand and held it. But he couldn’t hold it the whole time. And I couldn’t kiss him. It was killing me. I think it was killing him, too, because he started writing me little notes. ‘Dinner?’ I smiled and nodded. ‘Maybe we can study after?’ I nodded again. And I tried to pay attention to Professor Doctor Strange, but it wasn’t easy. Especially when Ethan drew me another little picture… and wrote ‘xoxo‘ beside it.

I had other classes this afternoon… but I remember very little about them. This day has been dragging on forever.

Now it’s time for me to meet Ethan for dinner. And I’m supposed to be able to sit with him and eat.

Without attacking him in the dining hall.

what sandra thinks

what sandra thinks

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‘Dear Diary’ is fiction based on actual events.
Any similarities to your college life is purely coincidental.
Any similarities to mine is entirely intentional.

©2018 what sandra thinks

About what sandra thinks

Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
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55 Responses to dear diary | x – xoxo #atozchallenge

  1. Writing Sparkle says:
    27 April 2018 at 8:01 am

    This piece is cute and refreshing. You capture that youthful idea of love and distracted obsession really well. Nicely written. Great choice for your letter X with the “xoxo.”

    https://writingiscommunication.wordpress.com/2018/04/27/x-factor-the-space-between-bookstore-presented-by-a-to-z-100-word-stories/

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  3. Meg says:
    27 April 2018 at 8:51 am

    Ahhhhh… love it! I knew you’d nail it! No pun intended! Lol!

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  4. Iain Kelly says:
    27 April 2018 at 10:07 am

    True love – Ethan seems almost too good to be true 🙂

    X IS FOR XANTHI, GREECE

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  5. Peter's pondering says:
    27 April 2018 at 2:11 pm

    “Even the second time” – Oh yes – a lovely bit of writing Sandra. Well done.

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  6. ladieswholunchreviews says:
    28 April 2018 at 1:31 am

    Lovely! I adore your little drawings, too! The perfect touch

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  7. Marquessa says:
    28 April 2018 at 3:32 pm

    I LOVE THIS! And I have to “borrow” how you did the dialogue!!!

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  8. TheDreamGirlWrites says:
    29 April 2018 at 9:52 am

    I loved it!!!
    This whole series is so damn cute and I love it!! Especially those drawings at the end. You should totally put a few on the shirts and sell it 🙂

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  9. TheDreamGirlWrites says:
    30 April 2018 at 8:45 am

    Will surely check it!! Can’t wait to see the end. And like M said you should probably continue it with maybe like an Epilogue or something cause this is goooood

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  10. TheDreamGirlWrites says:
    30 April 2018 at 9:20 am

    Yay!! Do so..
    Always here ❤

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  11. jrvincente says:
    1 May 2018 at 8:06 pm

    Excellent! I can just feel the emotion radiating from the screen! ❤

    Jayden R. Vincente
    Erotic Fiction Writer

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  12. supernaturalsnark says:
    6 May 2018 at 4:02 pm

    I love the little doodle note at the end!

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  14. Lennon Carlyle says:
    19 May 2018 at 6:36 am

    Dinner? How can you eat and look at him? I can remember being so into someone I couldn’t eat and would drop weight. Darling, now I would knock a guy out of the way to eat dinner! LOL

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