…and this is a pointless post… because… see title of post.
Posting is a huge struggle. I hate this empty feeling… like I have nothing to talk about… nothing to write about.
Except writing about not being able to write.
I know, huge contradiction.
Sometimes I can crank out some terrible poetry but that’s it. I understand that I’m having a fiction slump. But I feel like I’m having an everything slump.
Slump. What a weird word. I don’t think I like it.
Is my blog dying? Is my mind going? (The answers? I don’t know and probably.)
I don’t think this is all about writing. I mean, of course it’s not. It’s me. It’s something in my head eating away at my inspiration… my creativity. And whatever that something is, I can’t seem to kick it.
Maybe I shouldn’t have opened this can of worms because now I’ve lost the lid and everything is a slimy mess.
Yeah, I know… I can post whatever I want. And sure, I always intended to use this blog (in part) as a place to vent… to unload. That people read and give me a shoulder to cry on is a huge bonus. (I said huge bonus not huge bon… never mind.) I have a place to turn when I need to say things I can’t say to people I’m going to see sitting across from me at Thanksgiving dinner.
But I think it’s gotten out of control. (See above… worms.) I’m going in circles here just as I do in my head. I hate to use the word ‘do’ it because it doesn’t feel like I’m actively ‘doing’ it. It feels like it just is.
What I’m trying to say is… um… fuck if I can figure it out! I think… something’s not right. Okay, yeah… No shit. I think my life is boring and lonely.
And yeah, I know… I keep saying the same things in different ways. Queen Paraphrase.
I’m going to try to collect the slimy worms now and get them back into the can. And try not to open it again. No one wants to see that…
©2017 what sandra thinks
what sandra thinks 
I’m so sorry you’re feeling like this. The tone of this one worries me a bit. I so wish I could help in some way, any way.
By the way, you’re poetry is certainly NOT crap. 😊
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To be honest, it worries me, too. I’ve been sort of holding my breath all afternoon since my kids had a half day today and I have no idea how to explain me sitting here sobbing… so I can’t let that happen.
Thanks about the poetry… but I feel that what I’ve written lately has been crap…
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Don’t. It’s not crap at all. Are you feeling any better? 😕
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Yeah… I’m feeling a little better. I have a little kid-related stress, so that’s awesome (not). Some days, I cannot figure out how I thought I was going to handle being a parent. I get so emotional and torn apart when even little things go wrong…
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Hahaha! Not to minimize how you’re feeling, but join the club on that one. 😃😃
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I know. 🙂 But you know how I am. I worry way too much about everything… I have trouble controlling my emotions… and I’m kind of scared that they’re only 12 and 9 and it’s going to get worse. How the hell am I going to handle that??
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Hell, I don’t know. I’m trying to figure that out here myself. If I figure it out, I’ll let you know. 😃😃
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Thanks… 🙂
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No worries. I got you’re back. 😊
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For some reason, I have that children’s story in my head – “How to Eat Fried Worms”…go figure.
Anyways, I can relate to this…it’s part of the reason I deleted my last blog. I kind of felt like it had run its course…like how many different ways can I talk about how bisexual I am? I began to think it was stupid, because if I were REALLY okay with myself, I wouldn’t need to talk about it so much, so that led me to think maybe I wasn’t really okay with myself, which led me to believe that really everything I wrote was moot and meaningless, which led me to hate myself, which led me to…
…what I’m getting at is, that your “pointless” blog actually makes an interesting “point”.
And I’ve sort of been dealing with the same lately…you ought to see how many posts I have started and in my “queue” to be posted, but I haven’t posted them because I don’t really know what I’m trying to say….
…kinda like now…sigh.
I’m sorry, if I took the attention off your post.
I just get you.
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No… it’s fine! And I have a bunch of unpublished posts, too. Lately I’ve been stuck in my own head, if that makes any sense, and I feel like I keep writing the same thing in different ways. I’m sick of me… so I assume everyone else must be, too…
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It makes perfect sense to me…
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Some really intense physical workout usually helps. Some of them are really pleasant! I bet that would break writer’s block. 😉
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That might do it. But I need a partner. A solo workout just isn’t the same… 🙂
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Well, then! I’m hear to help! Now, which door is it that I can knock on?
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No need to knock… the door’s open…
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Then I’ll come right in. A little stretching exercises first?
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That’s always a good idea! Wouldn’t want to injure myself…
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Exactly. Safety first. Besides, it’s good to be flexible prior to a vigorous workout.
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Flexibility is very important. I don’t think the workout would be as satisfying without enough flexibility.
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God knows how boring pull ups can be. No, the regimen must be interesting and challenging.
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Yes… various positions to target different muscle groups.
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Adductor longus can be a very difficult muscle to work out, so the various positions will need some work.
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I’m willing to try anything. You can be my trainer.
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Very well. I’ve been involved in training before, so beware that I can be very hard on my athletes.
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Just the way I like it.
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By the time we’ve completed your workout, I feel confident that you’ll have renewed vigor and a need to write.
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I should probably detail the experience so I can refer to it prior to the next workout.
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There’s nothing prohibiting you recording the exercise sessions for future reference.
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Oh, even better. Don’t want the workout to get stale, though. We’ll need a few different versions…
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Agreed. Perhaps a few dozen recordings at first. Then we can get a bit more selective on the subsequent sessions.
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That makes perfect sense to me!
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And to be fair to your readers, I think that we should post our workout sessions here.
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Like instructional videos? After some creative editing… if the lighting’s right… we’ll see.
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Very similar. With slo-mo replays on the most important parts of the workouts.
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So the whole thing will be in slo-mo? 🙂
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Well, the actual workout will be punctuated with moments of intensity, followed by moments of rest. The part of the work-out that is most fascinating for your viewers will be replayed in super slo mo.
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I will defer to your technical expertise… I want my viewers to be satisfied.
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I think everyone will be satisfied
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I know I will… 🙂
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Me too😊
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Hey you two, get a room.
So, you don’t like the word slump. Well, I always try anagrams If I don’t like a word. Lumps, no plums. I bet you like plums.
No, let’s not go there!
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And I bet you like lumps. 😛
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touché
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Oh my word! The comments! Anyway… sometimes writing crap gets you over the hump. Sometimes taking a day off to catch a breath works, too. And if it helps, I’ve been in a huge fiction slump myself. I just finally, finally finished a short story after not writing anything new since early summer. And I was so unsure of myself I sent it to a friend for preview before posting. It happens. It will pass. ❤
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I hope so. I feel totally useless with writing! I know it’s because there’s too much crap going on in my head. I’m too anxious… too stressed out.
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So give yourself that break. Just 24 hours. No one is going anywhere!
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And I love how you knew that was exactly what I was thinking… everyone will bail! 🙂 ♥
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Not a chance! ❤️
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I am so sorry you’re going through a tough stretch. Know you’re not alone. I think I cried all of Thursday.
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😦 I’m sorry… ♥
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For now, perhaps we can blame the planets for screwing with its mentally and emotionally. Reading your post, I feel like I am staring at my own words. I’m sorry to hear that you are also going through such an experience.
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And I’m sorry you’re going through it, too. I hope the planets find some new alignment and everything changes.
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💖
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I totally agree! every time i open my laptop to write my mind goes blank. it is such a depressing feeling. Hopefully your empty feeling will be filled with…i don’t know…
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Yeah… I’m hoping this doesn’t last long…
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Slumps suck, but you’ll come out of it. You just have to wait it out. Or get a dick. 😂😂😂
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Hahaha… thanks… 😀
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Might I suggest paint chip poetry? lol I know it sounds super lame but I’ve done all 10 of my cards already. I did 4 over a few days and then yesterday I did the rest and have all the photos ready to start planning blog posts. It’s kind of fun and frustrating and might be a nice little change to boost your writing?
I hope your blog isn’t dying! I would miss you too much Sandra!
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Do you just take the 3 words from the paint chip and use them in a poem? Is there more to it? Am I missing anything?
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No that’s legit all there is! lol Just work the name of the colours into your poem.
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I’ll have to take a trip to Home Depot… and see how many shades of black I can find… 😀
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LOL I grabbed from all over the wall…mostly by the colour name if it took my interest. Some of them were really hard to do but they are done now!
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I can relate to this — cuz, me too.
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It’s miserable!
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What a relatable post! I get this feeling heaps (writers block is the absolute worst). Have you ever tried writing/blog writing prompts?
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Me, too! Not only the no ideas, I just don’t feel the craving to write, which I usually do. Frankly, it scares me! I’m thinking I might just write one of my short fiction pieces and invite people to write another installment (hint, hint!)
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Haha… you know, I’ve had people ask me to collaborate before but it has never actually worked out…
I still feel like I want to write… but I just can’t do it. It’s messed up. I feel like my life is too boring and empty for me to have any inspiration.
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Nah your never boring. Having been an avid reader for some time, you are inspiring me to write more. Though I’m like you, I doubt myself quite a lot. Regardless I think sharing is both good for ourselves and the readers of our words. I guess that’s the cool thing about writing, sometime its creative, inspiring, educational, stimulating 😉 and other times its a simple process of unclogging our minds. As long as it has some purpose it’s all good.
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Thank you so much. I do know I have too much “bad” stuff in my head. Maybe that’s making me a little too sad to write. And I don’t want to keep writing about being sad… it might be making the sadness worse…
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Sorry but I had a good laugh at the discourse between you and V!😊 I too have a number of posts in the queue and am feeling hemmed in by my posts. As a breather, I’m taking down old posts and thinking about a new diretion. Slumps aren’t great in writing (or anything else for that matter) but rolling with it seems to be the only option, no?
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Yeah, I guess. I have no other choice. I’m just so frustrated. I feel like I might as well slip away into the void… because I just don’t have anything to say. I hate it! My stupid boring life… that’s what I blame…
Glad you were entertained by our workout discussion… 🙂
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Maybe boring is the new black. At least I hope so ’cause my life is bland. I’m thinking about being more ” real” like you. Do you realize that your readers feel your authenticity?
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I may be too real… I probably scare people. Do people really think of me like that? I figured they probably just think I’m crazy. And they’re not wrong…
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Sandra, we’re all a little crazy. Some of us are just better at masking it than others.
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Yeah… I guess that’s true. I’m not very good at the masking…
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Better that than having pretense erode your insides until you’re an empty shell. Okay, I’ll stop there ’cause I’m getting negative with my lack of 😴. Tomorrow is a new day!
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And if people see the real me and like me anyway… well, that says something, right?
I hope you get some sleep and have a good day tomorrow! ♥
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First off, your poetry is not crap..
Secondly, everyone faces this, its alright..its just a phase.. hang in there.. it will be over soon!!
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Oh… I hope so! And thanks about the poetry… ♥
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I know with certainty you’ll be alright!
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Thanks ♥
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You’ll pull out of this slump in due time. Even your posts about not writing still gets our attention. That says a lot. Why not ask for suggestions/tooics your followers would like to see you write about? Kinda like the piano man taking song requests 😀
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Okay… what do you want me to write about? 😀 I just hate that I feel so boring and empty…
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You’re not boring at all…..the total opposite of boring ❤ You write romance really really well. I can give you a scenario to write about. You want something challenging? How about a friend of mine that’s been searching on line for a wife? He prefers japanese women…..can evolve from that? Him finding love? Doesn’t have to be someone from on line….you could make it what you want. 😉
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That definitely sounds challenging. Of course, I’m having so much trouble writing lately that everything sounds challenging! But thank you… ❤
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It’s definitely challenging! 😂
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