I don’t know if I’m really going to make this a regular thing… but maybe it will be entertaining… for you, I mean. Well, maybe for me, too. Or it will just make you think I’m way more nuts than you already do…
Something annoys me. Something about me. Well, there are a few things about me that annoy me, but today, one thing in particular troubles me.
When something ‘bad‘ happens, I overreact. Mostly on the inside, but sometimes with tears on the outside. I put bad in quotes because that’s part of the issue. It might not be something all that bad to anyone else. But to me, it feels like the worst thing ever… and I slip into panic mode… or intense sadness mode. Sure, sometimes, it’s justified… but even then, sometimes it’s a bit intense. But little things… they often affect my mood far more than they should.
Here’s an example:
Oh, hell, you already know this one. I’m freaking out that I’ve been unable to post the next part of my fiction (Back To You). As everyone who commented on that post told me — there’s no need to panic… no need to worry. Yet I totally panicked. I still am panicking, a little.
[Aside: I did write some last night. BUT I don’t think I’m going to publish a make-up ‘fiction friday‘ post… I’m just going to wait until this Friday. So I will have skipped a week. Boo. See? Still bothers me. Which is nuts.]
I think I could explain better if I had another example but I can’t think of one at the moment. Maybe that’s a good sign? And lately, it seems that the intense sadness/panic doesn’t go on for as long as it used to. That’s good, too, right? (Fuck… am I looking on the bright side??)
Final assessment: pretty good mood. hope it lasts. (oops, negativity sneaks in…)
©2017 what sandra thinks
I can relate to overreacting to seemingly minor things. I do think that the sadness/panic not lasting as long is a sign of improvement; I’ve also found that my ‘episodes’ are shorter than they used to be. ♥
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Episode… that’s the word I needed. I think. 🙂 Sometimes, the things I flip out about are so stupid. And of course, the panic/sadness makes things harder to resolve, you know? ♥
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Yes, I know what you mean. I used to get really angry at myself for overreacting, and that made everything much worse. ❤
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I do that all the time. Why am I being so ridiculous? And then I’m overreacting to that…! ♥
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Positivity?!? Who are you, and what have you done with Sandra? 😳
Just kidding. Look, don’t invite negative where there isn’t any. Having a good day? Great! I’m super glad to hear that. Don’t waste that feeling by worrying about some other shoe dropping. Enjoy it! That’s an order! 😉
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What’s weird is that I don’t really feel positive. It doesn’t really make sense… I know. I guess I’m just feeling like I’m in a decent mood but the negative doesn’t really ever go away. Anyway… it’s bothering me less today. And yeah… it is hard for me not to worry about the next bad day. I hate that!! 🙂
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Hey man, just enjoy it as it comes. Don’t worry about tomorrow. There’s a reason today is called the present. It’s a gift. And if it’s a good one? Take advantage of it. 😊
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Oh my god you are so corny. 😀 Present. Gift. 😀
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Well, this should come as no surprise, man. I agree with you, in the presentation. Sometimes my hippie shows. Should tuck that in, I suppose. But I believe that when the universe gives you a good day, don’t ask why. Just take it and be thankful. 😃
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No… not a surprise. And I appreciate you because it made me laugh… although that may not have been your intention… 🙂
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Always! I’m certainly not above self-deprication. 😃
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God knows I’m not either. 🙂
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Hahaha! Ya’ know, if you can’t laugh, you’d go crazy. Even if it’s at yourself. 😃
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It’s true… 🙂
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Lol, this reminds me of the series I’m forever starting on my other blog (hiptobesnark). But I know how you feel – especially when something is incomplete and your pride yourself on keeping to the set schedule. It feels like failure when you don’t. That being said, with writing, I think it’s always better to be sure that you’re ready to post.
The funny thing about overreacting is that eventually you forget about it until a later point and then you wonder what you were so worried about. Life, eh…
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Oh yeah, that’s true… so many of the things I freak out about seem like nothing when looking back. Although I admit to stressing out all over again with some of them.
I didn’t know you had another blog. I’m going to check it out. 🙂
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Yup, I’m guilty of the same. If only they did brain transplants…😝
That blog is a huge mess. At first it was linked to my main blog but then I realised that babbling away like a crazy person wasn’t something to link so publicly 😂😂
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But I’d like just a partial brain transplant. And that would be really messy, I think. 🙂
Well… I babble away like a crazy person all the time, so… yeah. 😀
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They can take all of mine. All it’s gotten me is trouble. I need a brain that’ll make me rich. LOL.
Aw, I don’t think you do! Compared to me, almost everyone else could pass for normal. Maybe that’s my superpower… Luckily for me, I’ve embraced my weirdness. 😂
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I need a rich-making brain, too. Too bad you can’t just go have one ‘installed’. 😀
I’ve never felt like a normal person. I mean, I’ve clearly got some issues… not even sure I’d want them all to go away because I still want to be ‘me’… or some parts of me, anyway. 🙂
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Normal is overrated 😛
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Agreed. And also boring. 🙂
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Yup! At least our quirkiness makes us interesting!
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Looking back I see that before my anxiety disorder diagnosis, I overreacted a lot in life. But it didn’t seem that way when I was going thru all those years. Mostly it was manageable but I was SO emotional all the time. Bad or good. Still fight it sometimes and I appreciate how hard you have to work at staying positive. Exercise saves me. and a good night’s sleep, but not tonight. For some reason sleep is eluding me… love you, my friend ❤
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It does seem manageable… mostly. But sometimes, some things just seem so terrible that I kind of freak out. I do think it’s better than it was even just six months ago. I do get pretty emotional for all sorts of reasons… some rational, some not. Maybe some day I’ll have a better handle on it. Oh… and obviously, I’m still awake, too… 🙂 love you, too ❤
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You seem to be writing more lately and that is so wonderful. Hope the kids and hubby are doing well, too. Can you believe it’s August already? I’m just not ready for the summer to end!
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Oh, I’m not ready either. Add much as the kids drive me crazy (they are in a phase where they always seem to have something to fight about), when summer’s over, I need to find some kind of job… And I’m not looking forward to it… and it sucks for the kids because they really need me to be around to drive them to activities and stuff like that. I don’t want them to have to quit everything…
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I’m glad that you started this Moody Monday thing. Reading the comments from this post (or some of them as I scrolled down to make my own) it’s so awesome to see so much support for you! And the final mood assessment? Great addition!
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I do have some awesome friends here… which is amazing. And really good for me since I have, like, no offline friends. We’ll see if I keep this up… I might scare everyone next time I’m having a crappy Monday… 🙂
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I don’t think you’d scare anyone! Write whatever you feel
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