I chose this song because it’s beautiful. To me anyway. I was so obsessed with it at one point that I was listening to it 10 or 20 times a day. Yeah, I get like that with some songs… some artists. I don’t really have an explanation. It just happens.
I’d love to say more but my head isn’t in the best place… and I don’t want to bore or burden you… so I’ll just stop… and leave you with Mr. Berninger.
I could walk out, but I won’t
In my mind I am in your arms
I wish someone would take my place
Can’t face heaven all heavenfaced
No one’s careful all the time
If you lose me, I’m gonna die
How completely high was I?
I was off by a thousand miles
Hit the ceiling, then you fall
Things are tougher than we are
I could walk out, but I won’t
In my mind I am in your arms
I wish someone would take my place
Can’t face heaven all heavenfaced
Let’s go wait out in the fields with the ones we love
…
She’s a griever, my believer
It’s not a fever, it’s a freezer
I believe her, I’m a griever now
…
Because we’ll all arrive in heaven alive
We’ll all arrive…
what sandra thinks 
That is a beautiful song. I can’t believe those guys get no airplay on my Alt station. If you hadn’t introduced them to us, I’d still have never heard of them!
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A long time ago before my awesome station went away, there was one song by them that used to get a lot of airplay… that was my introduction. (That was called Bloodbuzz Ohio, by the way… it’s great!)
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Oh! Sounds ominous! 😜
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Great pick today. They’re a really good band. They were here recently but I couldn’t go. I hope to see them in July at The Forecastle Festival. I’m pretty sure they’re in the line-up.
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They’re coming here in Oct, but I’m sure can’t go… for various reasons… 😞
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Ok. October isn’t for like 4 months. Mention it to your husband. Like frequently. Maybe he’d get the hint? Maybe he’d take you?
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It doesn’t matter… I have no idea what’s going to happen with this awful back pain I keep having on and off… I’d hate to get tickets and then be in too much pain to go. I’m a mess. Plus, unemployed… shouldn’t be making ‘unnecessary’ purchases. I really can’t do anything. It’s fucking depressing. My life is pretty crappy right now.
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I wondered what your pain was, you hadn’t really mentioned it. Or, my ADD kicked in and I missed it if you did. You went to the doctor a bit ago, didn’t you? They didn’t find a cause?
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I went to the chiropractor. I felt better for a day or two… then not so much… then better again. Now, over the last 2 days, getting bad again. There is no cause. Like, I have no idea what I did to fuck it up. I was supposed to get xrays a long time ago but I never went. I think I’ve just had pain on and off for so long that I don’t even bother… I just have to live with it. Which sucks because it piles onto the depression. It’s like there are no parts of my life that are good… even some stress with/for the kids lately. Nothing is going well.
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Man. I hate it when shit piles like that. It really does seem to come in waves. But, so does the good stuff. You’re due some of the latter. 😊
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The good stuff never comes. I swear, I cannot remember the last time I had any sort of good stuff. And in the middle of everything else, I have that funeral on Friday for my cousin. I’m just done. I’d love to know if I’m ever going to have anything good in my life again. Because it seems like the answer is no.
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Oh man, you’re gonna make me cry. Now I just wanna give you a hug. Remember that comment about wanting to but not being able to help? It blows!!! 😠
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I’m sorry. I always tell people I have incredibly bad luck… everything seems to go wrong… but people don’t believe me. I wish it wasn’t true — believe me! My little sister and I even have a name for it. “The (my maiden name here) Curse.” Getting married/changing my name didn’t cure it…
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That sucks. Does it happen to her too? And, by the way, self-fulfilling prophecies are real things, man. So is the power of positive thinking. 😊
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Well, then I’m fucked because nothing in my life has ever led me to think positively. I must have started out at least neutral… but nothing’s ever gone my way… how the hell do I think positively? It’s impossible not to assume the worst. Seriously. Positive thinking is just not a thing I know how to do. And I don’t think it’s something that can be learned… I’m a smart girl… but I’ve never been able to do it. Maybe I’m just really stupid in that area. Also, I have no faith. In anything.
My sister has had some bad luck but nothing like me. Hers does kind of come in waves… but she gets the good waves, too. To me, she’s lucky!
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Dang. I don’t know what to say. Surely you’ve experienced good times..at some point? When y’all first got married, as a kid, after having kids? It can’t be a totally foreign concept….can it? 😕
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I guess not. There have been good times, I think. I guess what happens is that now I realize how many mistakes I’ve made and it’s kind of tainted most of my good memories. Like the good times I had re gone because of something I did… some decision I made. Does that make sense? (I rarely make sense…!)
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It makes sense, yes. But it doesn’t make sense, ya’ know? You can’t blame yourself for every negative thing that’s ever happened! Stop that shit. You are way too hard on yourself.
You do know I’m gonna keep telling you this, right? You’re gonna want to take me down by the neck at some point. Of this, I am certain. 😊
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I’d better start working out more aggressively. So I can take you down as needed. 😛
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Ruh roh! I’ve done it now. 😃
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