I’m struggling to write… but I’m sure you already know that… it’s got to be painfully obvious with the crap I’ve been posting. My alphabet is crumbling. I may not make it with M tomorrow. I have to bake some cookies and make some chocolate covered toffee and and a cheesecake. Sunday may be a day off from the alphabet, but it’s Easter. I won’t have any writing time. And if M is late, I’ll be behind for N. And every other letter after that.
Sigh. Fail.
Something is wrong with me. My brain isn’t working. I might be able to get the music post out there… maybe. But even then, every word I write sounds so stupid. It’s like I suddenly have nothing in my head. I can’t get thoughts on paper. Hell, I can’t get thoughts at all.
I’m frustrated with myself. This has been going on for days… it feels like I’ll never write anything decent again. Not for this challenge… not fiction… not poetry… just nothing.
I know I’m supposed to give myself a break, but I don’t have time for that. And I don’t want a break! I want to be able to write again without sounding like an idiot.
In my head, I’ve been doing really well… I feel good. Right now is the first time I’ve cried in a few weeks. That sounds pathetic but a few weeks is really good for me. But my incapacity to write is breaking me.
My husband finds it hilarious that I’m having trouble finding things to bitch about. Or trouble writing about them when I do find something.
I’m not going to quit or anything… but I have no idea if I’m going to be able to post anything good anytime soon. To all of you… my friends and readers… all my recent new followers. I’m sorry. I hope it gets better… and I hope you’ll still be here to see it.
Write short.
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That makes sense… and I’ve tried but even that doesn’t seem to be working… so I guess I just keep trying…
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M is for Maybe
Maybe we’ll see a post from you, Maybe we won’t. Either way, don’t beat yourself up over it. Hell, I’m a day or two behind in commenting and responding to comments. We’re halfway through the alphabet and I’m TIRED! Hang in there!
~Mary
Jingle Jangle Jungle
#AtoZChallenge 1970’s Billboard Hits
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Thanks, Mary!
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you must NOT DOUBT yourself!
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I know… I’m just so frustrated…
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writers block happens alas!
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I would happily read your shopping list Sandra or a brief diary of a day?
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Now you’re just being nice! 🙂 I am almost out of milk…
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That’s a start?
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🙂
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Yep, short is better and easier. And your kale post was perfect!
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My head is empty. I’m thinking M really is going to be for “me”… It’s probably the easiest thing for me to bitch about. I guess that’s kind of what this post was…
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We will always be here! Take a break or post short. 6 word stories. One liners. One word that resonates with you.Just a music video you love…your audience loves you!💕
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Apparently some of them also love kale. 😃 I really hate this empty feeling… maybe I need ice cream or something.
Thank you so much… Always so sweet to me. Do I deserve it? Probably not! 🙂
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Ahh…of course you do!!! Have a great Easter weekend.
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Thanks…. and you have a fabulous weekend, too!
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Dude! You’re putting way too much pressure on yourself. Relax. Breathe. Meditate. Whatever. But chill. We aren’t going anywhere. You give yourself zero credit! And, you’re gonna force me to rainbow, butterfly, and cliché the shit outta you!!!! 😃
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Oh no… that might push me over the edge! 🙂
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No worries. I wouldn’t do that to ya’. 😊
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You’ll be grand. Look at how much you wrote when you said you couldn’t write 😉
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🙂
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Ditto what everyone else said. And I like Beach’s threat–cliche the shit outta ya. I might have to use that one in a book 🙂
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Haha! Thanks, Julie. 🙂
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Your creativity and talent are still there, even though you don’t believe in yourself right now. If I pushed myself to post something every single day, I would most likely be feeling the same way. I’ll be reading your posts anyway…I’m not going anywhere! 💕
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Thank you… I did this to myself, really. A-to-Z is a lot anyway… and then I couldn’t decide on a theme so I did two. What is wrong with me?? Anyway, thank you again. ♥
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Choices, choices, choices. 😊
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I feel the same. I’ll working night hours at my new job and I been crazy adapting to it that I haven’t written anything I’m all that proud of in at least a week. I think the pressure of the challenge is getting to me. Everyday I miss a letter I get anxious. To catch up I threw 7 letters in one post. Total fail 😦
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Actually that’s a great idea! 🙂
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