I hope you were sitting down. I wouldn’t want anyone to sustain an injury. It has been 109 days since my last perk. I bet you never thought you’d see one again. Yeah, neither did I.
It’s not easy to find the bright spots when there is so damn much darkness fighting to hide them. I know the fucking cliché – look for the good things in every day. Bite me. There are days when there are legitimately NO good things. That I woke up and I’m alive? Fuck… that doesn’t count… because it doesn’t. But also because when things suck so much ass, that’s not even a bright spot… ‘cause a part of you doesn’t even want that… it’s just the start to the hell to come. (I know… my attitude is fucking great.)
I had an appointment this morning. [As is often the case, I’m writing this after midnight, so technically the appointment was yesterday… but that’s irrelevant…] I was worried because I knew it was possible that my healthcare provider was not going to be happy with me. You see, I was kind of self-medicating (no, not with an herbal supplement). Actually, I was self-unmedicating. Some side effects undo all the good. Yet I worried to the point of near panic that she would tell me if I didn’t take it, don’t come back. Seriously, way to blow things out of proportion, sandra’s brain. But she understood… and now we move forward. Good thing #1.
Last week, my son’s second trimester report card arrived. 8 classes, 8 teachers, 8 grades. They were as follows: 97, 98, 98, 97, 97, 100, 100, 100. He’s the best. Good thing #2.
I have realized that even when my hair no longer has its beginning-of-the-day-freshly-showered bounciness, it still looks good. Not to worry, I still have other appropriately bouncy parts. But the hair… it’s always been straight and a bit lifeless. Somehow, it seems to have gotten a life. This probably sounds ridiculous but it’s a great feeling to look into a mirror when you thought you looked like crap only to find out that you still have great hair. A good hair day is pretty powerful. Good thing #3.
I’m wondering if any of you have any idea how fucking adorable and hilarious it is to see an incredibly cute little 9-year-old girl replicate the dude’s dancing from this Mountain Dew commercial…
Well, I’ll tell you… it’s one of the funniest things I’ve seen in weeks. She’s the best. Good thing #4.
Hm. Should I have spread these good things out into multiple posts? Too late now.
Thank you and good night.
Good hair days, smart son, cute kid, I’d say they’re all good reasons to smile. Hugs xo
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☺ xo
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Good hair days are the best, sadly I can’t remember my last bouncy barnet moment so enjoy yours!
Smart son, getting on at school – definitely a reason to be cheerful. Mine has a reserved seat in the detention hall and a worrying fascination with fire 😱
I hope you continue to find reasons to smile 😁
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Thanks so much! ☺ My daughter gets good grades, too, but I think she’s going to be the one who drives me mad as she gets older…!
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They’re are good days where we will see a positive here and there. There are good days where we actually genuinely smile. And there are days that are really nice where we feel semi-normal. But those are rare. The bad days, well, those are the ones that take an incredible amount of energy just to get out of bed. Sure, you’re alive, but you’re damn miserable. I feel you. I really do. I wish I could say things well be better, but I don’t know. Everyone is different in how they process and move on. I’m almost 3 years into hell, but there have been some signs of life and light. A teensy one here, a brighter one there. I’m too stubborn to give up. But some days I have to accept nothing will get done.
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It seems the bad things have a way of taking over… sometimes it feels like I’ll never have another ‘good day’ again… not 100%, anyway. Even yesterday wasn’t 100% good… there’s always something creeping in…
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I understand. I really do.
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I have no idea what a good hair day is. My hair does whatever the fuck it wants, when it wants, and how it wants. 😃
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Haha… maybe you just need a hat? ☺
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Have dozens. I think about shaving it all off sometimes but my wife won’t let me. 😃
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My husband is losing his hair… at some point, he’ll just shave it all off… I don’t mind if he does as long as he keeps the facial hair…
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I’m the exact opposite. My hair is full and grows like a weed but I couldn’t grow a beard if you paid me. All I get is scraggly and itchy. I never take a razor on vacation, and after a week or two, it just gets irritating. 😃
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The only time my dad ever skipped shaving was on vacation. I thought it looked great on him but he was a doctor so clean-shaven was always better for him. My husband looks weird without facial hair. I guess because he’s always had it…
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Yeah, my dad always has had a beard. He shaved it off one time, years ago, and it looked so weird. 😃
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Four wonderful things? I’d definitely call that a good day! I am, of course, jealous of your hair… But grateful that you can see mine at all now! 🙂
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I’m sure your hair will be long and flowing beautifully in no time. ☺ Plus, you are lovely regardless of hair!
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Thanks for saying that, but it is such a long process. And it’s pretty much pure white SO I need to live with that for 6 to 12 months before I can color it. What color eyebrows?
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I know it takes too long. I hope it goes by fast. What do you mean what color eyebrows? Blue? Haha… No, really, you or me? Mine are naturally too light… when I get my hair color/highlights, she puts color on my eyebrows, too. It’s subtle to others but makes a huge difference to me!
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Lol, no, not blue! But if I leave my hair white, which is kind of cool right now, what color should my eyebrows be? The brown that they were? Dark grey?
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Hmm… I’m not sure. I googled it… lol… it says your natural hair color is best… like, whatever shade it was before the white. It also said some stuff about skin tones but I think that was more about makeup. Yeah, I google everything. 😃
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That’s what I thought. I would have to kind of change makeup colors, I think. It would be easier if I had blue eyes 🙂
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Colored contacts? ☺
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I used to have green ones a long time ago…
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I love it! Genius and talented kids! Great hair and an ‘easy does it’ at the doc. All good. I always feel like I need to go somewhere when I have a good hair day, they are few and far between. I have two year old baby girl hair. So I have hair envy! Great perks!
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I thought the same thing… I should go somewhere because of the hair! I had that appointment but I probably should have gone somewhere else, too… I do need to go grocery shopping today… but I’m pretty sure no one there will be impressed with my hair. lol
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Ha! You never know… Swing it around while you wait at the deli counter! 😀
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Haha… maybe I’ll get some free salami? 😄
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Boom! There you go! Lol!
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We could all use some salami. And possibly other meats. Ha!
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I heartily agree! 😀
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There are some days where having fabulous hair saves me. I get it 🙂
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Isn’t it weird? I can’t think of any other thing about my appearance that has this impact.
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Well…for me a scale number can do it, too. But that works both ways and often backfires.
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Oh… that’s true… the number, I mean…
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I wish it wasn’t…but…yeah. I have great hair. Lol
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I may not be thrilled with the number itself but it’s good when it’s lower than the previous one… ☺
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You are right good hair makes a huge difference! Congrats to your son and Im glad your doctor understood. Shoes also help every now and then 🙂
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Yes – shoes, definitely!
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