do you remember
the nights we spent in darkness
whispering words of desire
softly into the sky…
mumbling thoughts of love
until the sun
nearly stole the night…
do you remember?
I do
I remember
the touch of your fingers
over my skin
the heat of your breath
floating from your mouth
into mine
I remember
every moment
even as I lie alone
wondering where you are
wondering
what could have been
before you slipped away
I remember
the vision of you
hand in hand with another
every memory torn to pieces
in an instant of pure anguish
because
replaceable feels worse
than rejected
what sandra thinks 
Oh wow, this is lovely but it hurts. No one wants to feel replaceable.
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Thank you… It is a terrible feeling… Unfortunately, one I’ve experienced too many times… both with romantic relationships and with friends…
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It is a terrible feeling. 😕
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Damn. Never heard it put this way, but you’re right. I’ve only really had three “serious” relationships. One is with my wife, one was a girl I broke up with. The 3rd was one where I was “replaced”. It’s been nearly 30 years since that one, so I’m long since over it. But it sure hurt like a motherfucker when it happened. 😔
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It’s especially awful with the “serious” relationships… but let me tell you… it also feels like hell when it’s a friend who did the replacing… 😳
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Shit. That might be worse. I think my overriding emotion in that case would be anger. Girls came and went, but friends are supposed to have your back, not stab you in it.
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I think I’ve had some bad “friends”… if I should even call them that!
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Yep, probably weren’t as good a friend as you thought to begin with. That’s even worse still, the charlatan. 😏
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I know. Makes me feel like a fool… but is it me? They’re probably just really good fakers…
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It’s easy for some to fake it. Pretend and play along, get whatever it is they take from it, then bolt to the next bestest thing, or wherever they can take some more. Don’t think you’re the only one who’s been duped. These asshats have it down to a science. But, they lose in the end, they don’t have anything real. I promise, you’re not a fool. Or, a lot of us are fools, so in that case, at least you’re not alone. 😃😃
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☺
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This is the worst. When someone leaves you for another. My second serious boyfriend dumped for another girl. I could still probably conjure up those feelings of hurt… You worry that you’ll never be enough for someone to love. You can only get over it if you can convince yourself its them and not you. Which is nearly impossible to do even if its true.
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And then you see them together… and it’s like a knife in the heart again… every single time. Same thing (but not exactly the same) with friends… I had these two friends years back but they weren’t friends with each other… they met through me and before I knew it, I was out and they were constantly together. Yep… I was totally replaceable. Pretty much impossible to keep from thinking you’re nothing special when that happens. Like Beach was saying… I think it’s even worse with friends…
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Right, I think it’s worse with friends because you don’t have to be exclusive with a friend the way you would with a boyfriend, lover, etc. so there’s no real good reason to be shut out just because one friend makes friends with another.
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This is wonderful and terrible… Feeling replaceable is not good.
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Thank you and I’m sorry. 🙂 Thanks for the wonderful… and sorry for the terrible. While I would love to have a clone of myself so I could get some shit done… I don’t want to be replaced…
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I hesitated to say I liked it because it captures those awful feelings of being replaced. And I was insecure enough to feel like it was my fault! 😦 But, great job 🙂
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What do you mean your fault? Never! And thanks… 🙂
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Of course I know that now, those guys were just undeserving idiots 😀
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We must have known the same guys. Ha! 🙂
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😀
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Wow! I remember feeling joy and shock while reading your post. Beautiful 😊
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Thank you so much
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I know that feeling…you’ve expressed it so well, Sandra.
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Thank you so much.
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You’re welcome, Sandra.
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