It will come as no surprise
I have overanalyzed
My mind has generalized
My heart’s been demonized
Inside I’ve dramatized
Dreamt and fantasized
Wished my life romanticized
Still my soul does agonize
When my hope is jeopardized
If I could be hypnotized
My racing thoughts paralyzed
No longer terrorized
I could find a compromise
Maybe even improvise
Until I am unrecognized
But instead I rationalize
And continually apologize
Repeating this exercise
That I’ve now memorized
And it makes me despise
Everything I symbolize
My pointless weak disguise
Only serves to emphasize
I’m not as advertised
what sandra thinks 
So powerful Sandra. This reminds of a place I used to live and still revisit from time to time. One day at a day…hugs!💕
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Thank you… you’re the best ❤
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Splendous! ✌👍
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Thank you!
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This was a fantastic read. It’s true of us all, to some extent, I think. There’s likely very people we each show our true selves to, completely. And only those few people know we aren’t “as advertised”. But that’s one of the things I enjoy about this medium: anonymous courage. 😊
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yeah… I don’t do so well hiding here. I guess that’s a good thing… but sometimes I think it’s too much. Yesterday, I just had a weird personal revelation and it freaked me out. Wasn’t sure I could even write about it… so this is what I ended up with…
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Like I’ve told ya’ before, do what you do, write what you feel like writing. It’s your site. Do with it what you please. I love your writing, so I say keep on keepin’ on! If somebody doesn’t like it, too fucking bad! 😃
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Thanks for that. I know you’ve told me… I don’t know why I find it so hard to believe I’m not a friend-repellent.
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Well, you’re certainly not to this friend. 😃
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Thank you… 🙂
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You’re welcome! Just keep being you. 😊
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That’s really good! Very powerful and well crafted. Hugs! ❤
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Thanks so much. I really need to try to write something less… I don’t know… serious? Internal struggle-ish?
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Lol. But no, write what you feel. It’s authentic and I think more powerful.
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We take you as you are. We wouldn’t want you any other way. Much love.
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And I appreciate that you do. Thanks ♥
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That was so marvellous. 😊 This reminds me of how I advertised myself to a certain someone. Love the depths of your lines. 😊
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Thank you so much. I’m glad it meant something for you.
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great rhythm and fantastic job coming up with all those “eyes” sounds – your soul has been now sanit-eyes’d.
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Thanks! I made a list of those words. I actually have tons more!
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making the lists is have the fun of creating these…cathartic really.
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I agree. I did it once before… with breakable, if I remember correctly.
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Love the rhyme – the poem itself is brilliant. I am having a tough time expressing myself today. Maybe I’ll think of something more meaningful to say later, but I get it, I totally do. Love to you…
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Thanks. Haven’t heard much from you lately… I hope things are going better for you… and that you don’t forget I exist. Are you getting the snow you wanted today? We’re supposed to get some later this afternoon…
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No actually, things are pretty much the same. Maybe even a little worse. And then there’s just the state of everything in general – politics, etc. I surely don’t forget you exist. I’ve been doing so much talking with H and not solving anything that I’m just sick of it. So it’s not you, love. It’s me. We are getting some snow. Figures, I have an important Dr’s appointment an hour away today. Seeing a pulmonologist about my chronic cough. I’m probably dying… Ugh.
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You are not dying! I’m sorry things suck. I thought things were improving around here… but then yesterday happened and something I didn’t realize was going to destroy me kind of did that. So that sucked. i need the power to forget the past as I cannot change it. Maybe it will be a peaceful drive to your appointment. One of my favorite ways to ‘run away’ is to take a long drive. Alone. In fact, I may leave to do just that in a little bit.
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Let’s talk soon. If I get this appointment out of the way I might feel a little better. Or a little worse. Depending on how it goes. Either way, I’ll be in touch.
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I hope it goes well. We are due for some good things… right?
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That’s for sure…
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I liked how you conveyed feeling in the words along with the actual aesthetic of the prose. Loved it.
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Thanks very much.
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Superbly written, Sandra.
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Thank you, m.
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You’re welcome.
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I forgot to add that I sometimes feel the same way. 💗
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It’s nice to know you understand… ❤
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💞
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Exquisite writing skills Sandra. It’s mysterious, haunting, and shows us you’re uncertainty. Mystery is very alluring. Well done girlfriend!
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You are far too sweet. But a really great ego boost. Thanks… 🙂
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Wonderful. That looks so hard to do and yet it worked perfectly. 🙂
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Thank you so much ☺
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As usual, beautiful poetry Sandra. You’re a very talented writer. How are things going for you? Are you starting to feel better with more light this time of year slowly? How are your kids and the job hunt? Hope you’re well 🙏🏻🌺
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Than you, Mandi! I’m doing alright. I do think more daylight is better.
I’ve still gotten nowhere on the job hunt… still having trouble doing much of anything. I’m beginning to think that’s permanent… that I’m never going to be able to do it.
The kids are good… although some days I feel like they fight just to stress me out! 😀
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Well, it seems being a Mom is ‘job’ enough I can imagine. Kids just fight, my brothers when we were younger as well. I haven’t had much luck with jobs either. But I’ve been doing some volunteer writing and such too improve my experience. Summer/Spring will be here soon enough and the kids can go outside right? Have a great week!
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I just wish “Mom” was a paying job! I do way more now than I did when I was working! 🙂 Hope you have a great week, too!
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