number twenty-eight.
I have random days when I feel pretty good. I actually feel ‘normal’. It seems that I have no control over when these days happen… or don’t happen. I’m sure someone will think it’s all under my control… and maybe someday it will be. But that day is not here yet.
Today has been a good day. And it’s about 7pm as I type these words so I hope to hell I’m not jinxing it. I even had the dreaded Mr. T appointment this morning… which, honestly, usually makes me anxious as fuck. Which really is a poor choice of words because fucking does not make me anxious. In fact, quite the opposite. Clearly I need more of that in my life.
But I digress…
the foot.
I accomplished something. It will sound like something incredibly pathetic to refer to as an ‘accomplishment’. But for me, it was…
I have phone phobia. No, not one that prevents me from satisfying my Candy Crush addiction (do I have a problem if I’m on level 1370?). My phone phobia is talking on the phone. More specifically, making phone calls. Incoming calls are doable. Outgoing calls… eek!
I can call my mother. No problem. Pretty much any other phone call feels impossible for me. Can I email or text instead? Good. Done. I have to call? Kill me now. I won’t even order a pizza… unless I can do it online. So… it’s pathetic… and when I make a phone call, it’s an accomplishment.
I have a foot injury from years ago that started bothering me a few months ago. I even asked my GP if she could recommend someone… 3 months ago… and she did… but I never called. I figured the pain would get better. No big deal. But… a couple of weeks ago, it got worse. I was starting to have trouble walking. I had to do something.
I made the call. And a few days ago, I went to see the guy. And he was awesome. And the pain is almost completely gone. Hm… I should have called a long time ago. I know this all must sound ridiculous to you… it was just a phone call.
the good sister.
A few weeks ago, while talking to my mom (yes, on the phone), I mentioned, in a stream of other thoughts, that my kids wanted to sign up for something that we just couldn’t pay for at the moment due to my unemployment. Of course, this made me feel like a horrible mother. Days later, unbeknownst to me, Mom mentioned this to my sister D. [D is a year older than me… never married… except maybe to her work.]
Last week, D texted me. “Sign the kids up for whatever they want and I will pay for it.” Then I cried. I know she can afford it and I know she loves to do things for them. But this is incredibly generous. And I was so touched that she would offer this.
And now… my kids are on their way to fulfilling their dream of becoming Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. (And yes, they bow to me…)
This is beautiful! I am like you when it comes to making phone calls. And also love being an awesome aunt. Hope your kids have fun.
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Thank you! I’m glad I’m not the only one with the phone thing. I usually feel like a freak because of that! The kids have been to only one class so far but they loved it.
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Phone calls are a pain for me too. My days are either really bad, bad, or borderline. Today was borderline. Tomorrow will probably be bad.
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😦 ♥ The times when I’m ‘feeling pretty good’… those are okay days… to many people, they would probably be bad days. But for me, they’re okay… they’re ‘better’. Until today, I was having a lot of really bad days… all strung together. Ugh.
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I understand.
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That’s terrific for the kids! My boys do Tai Kwan Do. They’ll love it…and be able to kick ass when need be!! 😃
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Yeah… the self-defense aspect is really great. Also the calm and focus… my daughter can use help with the former… calm is not her thing… LOL
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Haha! I hear ya. It’s good to burn some energy.
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I’d like to sign up myself! But that’s not happening right now…
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I’d blow out a hammie or something. 😃
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Sounds like a lot of good things happened, that’s wonderful! ❤
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♥ I am always so cautious… wondering when something’s going to come crashing down and ruin things… or I’m afraid I’ll jinx it. I haven’t had a lot of decent days lately… at least not in my messed up head!
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I’ve kind of felt that my whole life, particularly after youngest was born with all his problems. Afraid to be too happy because something bad was bound to happen. A nice Dr showed me I was too focused on the future and missing out on seeing my kids grow up in the present. I still struggle with it, tho. Wishing you more good days ❤
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I know what you mean. I spend way too much time worrying about the future… Things I have no control over… Wishing you good days, too! ♥
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Thank you! xoxo
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Good for you and that’s so freakin’ awesome of your sister! You are loved, and you had a great day! 💜
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Aw, I’m glad you’ve had a good day. I completely get the phone thing. Totally. I have to psyche myself up to order food. Texting is my very very good friend. And yay for your sister. I have a lovely sister too, who seems similar. 😊
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I’m so afraid this post is going to jinx me and I won’t have another decent day for weeks! I really thought everyone was going to think I was a freak for the phone thing! It’s kind of comforting, in a way, to know I’m not the only one with this issue. I managed to make the foot appointment… but who I should really be calling is a recruiter to help me find a job. I have not broken through that roadblock yet.
I have 3 sisters… this one who is generous and has the means to be… another who is lovely in other ways… and the one who is a nutball and doesn’t speak to me. Ah, well, 2 out of 3 anyway… 🙂
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I read somewhere that lots of introverts have a phone phobia. So, yay! We’re normal! 😀
I have one sister and I can’t imagine two more. We’re great now but growing up… ay!
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Yeah, there were a lot of fights… hell, I remember having actual fist fights… and of course lots of fighting over bathroom mirror time… and ironically, phone time! 😀
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I can’t even imagine. Just the two of us had so many fights, lol.
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Aw, Sandra, sounds like you had a great day. I’m so pleased for you … here’s hoping it leads into a happy Friday and weekend. Yay for nice sisters. Your boys will love that. 😊
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Just the one boy… and the girl. 🙂 I hope I haven’t jinxed myself by posting this. I really could use more decent days…
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No jinxing, just positive thinking … 😊
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I’m glad you got your foot looked at. Foot pain sucks. And not being able to walk? Creates a whole new set of problems. Hooray for good sisters! And hooray for the karate kids! They are going to have so much fun being Ninja Turtles! 😀 Glad you had some good stuff happen, girlfriend! xoxo
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Me too. I just hope that didn’t fulfill my quota of good stuff, leaving me totally screwed now…!
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Nah! Maybe its just gaining momentum!
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That would be a miracle!
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Hey you never know!
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I’m not a religious woman… 😋
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How (for once, refreshingly) perky… so, are you Master Splinter?
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No… I’m more of a Donatello, really. 😋 I’d like to sign myself up, too… Karate would be a great skill for me to have…
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Interesting… I saw you as more of a Raphael 🙂
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I’m not sure if I should be flattered or offended. 😛 Although, after I said Donatello (the genius one), I did think… with maybe a little Raphael (the angry one) thrown in…
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Raph kicks ass… That’s as far as I’d gone with that comparison. Flattery through comparing people with turtles… It’s a minefield! 😀
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Clearly I watch too much kid tv… I know way too much about the turtles!
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Me too! My boys are into that now… Can’t say I care for it. I still remember growing up with the original cartoon!
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I kind of like it… But I like some other kid stuff more. Some of it is hilarious… Of course, I have no idea if you have the same programming over there… And I’d probably embarrass myself… 😀
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The Turtles show my boys watch has an incredible voice cast… David Tennant, Seth Green, Sean Astin, Jason Biggs, Clancy Brown, that Russian guy from Armageddon… But there’s lots of cool kids stuff around these days. Kids! They don’t know they’re born!
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Yes – that’s the same Turtles show my kids watch. My son is also obsessed with the animated Star Wars shows that are on DisneyXD. (I don’t know if you have that…) One is LEGO and the other is just animated. They’re really good!
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We don’t have that channel as part of our TV package, otherwise I’m sure mine would be into that too!
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Full shows are available on the app! (I should get a damn job there… advertising…) Not that you want to invite the kids to spend their time watching even more television…!
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Haha! They don’t exactly fall short on that front… Still, I might check that out. For their benefit, obviously. Not for me… 😀
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Because you are not at all interested in Star Wars. 🙂 (Star Wars Rebels — that’s the one I like. I mean my son likes.)
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I’ve seen some of that… My …son… really liked it! 😀
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Yay! Good things are happening and more will come 🙂
Just an aside : my sister absolutely hated talking on the phone , and one day when she really needed to work part time got this opportunity to work for an airline answering phones which she almost didn’t take because she thought she really couldn’t do it! Guess what , she built her whole career from that temp job and she is now country manager for an airline reservations network 🙂
Turtle Hugs
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I think I would have a VERY hard time taking a phone job! I’m not sure I could do it either. Sounds like your sister got over it, though! 🙂 And thank you. 🙂
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And loved your ninjas photo 🙂
(argh i m almost giving myself a heart attack trying to comment on this tablet 😦 )
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That’s probably as close as I’ll ever come to posting a picture of my kids. (Paranoid mom.) Oh, and I much prefer my laptop — I hate typing on my phone or a tablet!
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Quite understandable , and aren’t we all ? (moms – paranoid)
I m stuck with this tablet for now if i want to visit you
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You definitely have to use it, then. 🙂
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First of all, I LOVE LOVE LOVE that chair that looks like a coffee cup but a chair? OMG adorbs. I think I need one in real life.
I am so with you on the phone thing. If it’s for a personal call for me (doc, dentist, interview, etc) I get so anxious about it. If I know it’s going to be a high tension phone call (I paid off my credit card, they said it was all done forever, but I still got bills?) then I am a nervous wreck But if I’m making calls for a job I’m fine. Even if it’s to call and yell at a vendor I am totally fine. It’s strange.
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At my last job, I always emailed people… never called unless I absolutely HAD to. I had a manager once tell me that having more personal contact with my colleagues would be good, but I know you don’t really have it in you. I thought that was great because he wasn’t going to pressure or punish me for it… he know I struggled with it. I was better if someone called me… but I always kept my ringer on very low so no one knew my phone was ringing except me… so I could ignore it if I didn’t feel like dealing with it… and then if there was a voicemail to deal with, I’d email the person back instead of calling. LOL
The chair is something I saw on a “free for personal use” graphic site, but I wasn’t totally happy with it, so I edited it a bit. Plus it was yellow… which I hate. 🙂
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Yeah I much prefer to email or text. Even with my family. If I’m expecting a call, I get anxious about it. Like I have a call coming in 2 hours and my body is already starting to react. My stomach is feeling a little tight and my heart is getting a little fast. But it’s like a job interview so that makes it worse. lol. It also means I should PROBABLY get out of my pjs, slap on some makeup and put on my hair…..gah energy use…
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Yeah, this is a huge problem for me since I’m looking for a job. It’s impossible to avoid phone calls entirely… and so far, that’s been a huge roadblock for me.
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Yeah – thankfully I get to use a website for most of it, exchanging info and stuff but the few families that have been interested have wanted skype interviews since I’m in Korea and they are in Canada haha. so I have to suck it up lol
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I really hate the idea of skype for an interview (or for anything else!)… I always look pale and crappy… and of course, I get all nervous and panicky. Oh, by the way, good luck!
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It was actually not too bad! they didn’t do the camera which made me more comfortable hehe. Not the “click” I was looking for. but we shall see!
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Yes… camera bad! 🙂
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Congrats on pushing through the fear of making phone calls and calling “the guy” about your foot anyway. It doesn’t matter at all whether anyone else considers making calls to be no big deal; to you, it IS a big deal, end of story. I’m so glad your foot pain is almost gone!
How awesome of your sister to pay for your kids’ martial arts training. 😀
I will wait as long as I need to for the next instalment of Secret Admirer. 🙂 Don’t rush!
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Oh… your comment made me smile. You’re so kind… so nice to me. 🙂
I really think the excruciating pain helped me make the foot doctor phone call. I’m worried about what kind of pain I’m going to need to be in to make job-hunting calls. I haven’t overcome that one yet…
I wanted to finish my Secret Admirer post tonight… but it’s after 1am so that’s not going to happen… 😦 I’ve missed a week before… but this is week 2! 😦
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I find it easier to make phone calls to strangers when I’ve prepared a rough outline of what to say. As for Secret Admirer, you’ll continue writing when you’re ready…easy for me to say, but I’ve experienced the anxiety of not being inspired to write, wondering if I’d ever be able to write again. It’s tough to ride the ups and downs of this “journey”. I empathize!
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I just feel like my writing is good and then it sucks… and then it’s good again, etc. I also feel like this is happening at the worst possible time in the story…
That’s a good idea for phone calls… write myself a script. Because I usually say stupid things because I’m so nervous…!
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If it were all within our control, we would all have good days every day and be inspired all the time. I can relate to your frustration!
I’m very nervous when I need to make phone calls in another language. That’s when I write myself a complete script and rehearse it a ridiculous number of times before making the dreaded call!
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🙂
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I hear ya. My ex and I would skip dinner rather than be the one calling to order food! I get so much more accomplished now that ordering, scheduling appointments can be done online.
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The internet is magic…
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AND BRINGS ME PRESENTS yay
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Haha
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