Dear Heart,
Could you give up
just a little control
of my mind?
Dear Shoulders,
Could you release
the tension causing me
such pain?
Dear Insides,
Could you stop
your violent flipping
and twisting?
Dear Eyes,
Could you close
without crying so hard
every night?
Dear Mind,
Could you clean up
the overwhelming mess
you’ve made?
© 2016 what sandra thinks
About what sandra thinks
Sandra is a writer, sometimes blogger, poet, artist, emotional disaster. She thinks far too much and sleeps far too little. Sandra lives in the Northeastern U.S. but dreams of an oceanfront home in Italy, but she would settle for a non-oceanfront home in Italy. She loves books, brutal honesty, coffee, and the color black. She hates insincerity, beer, whipped cream, and facebook. And she is uncomfortable talking about herself in the third person.
Dear Sandra,
I felt every word you wrote, from your heart to your mind and unfortunately at the moment I can relate all too well. Hugs to you my friend. xo
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I love that you understand me but hate that it’s because you relate… Hugs to you, too. ♥xo
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Thanks! ❤️
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Oh Sandra! 😦 I am sending you all the hugs in the whole world!!
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Thank you… so sweet of you! I really should stop writing and posting stuff like this… it’s bad. I’m moody and all… but lately I seem to have just the one mood… which sucks!
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Maybe writing posts like this will help you come out of your mood? It sometimes works for me, writing is very therapeutic
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Sometimes it does help. Oh, you should see how much I’ve written that I don’t post. Seriously, someone would have called the men in white coats to come get me by now!
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If they come and get you, I’ll visit you with a Unicron cake with a nail file in it so you can escape
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Haha… thank you.
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No probs 😋 i just ordered new glass files, their metal detectors wont know about it
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You’re so funny. 🙂
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Anything to help you smile!
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Oh yes. I can relate to every single line. Due to my own paranoia, I had to delay the release of my newest novel. I wanted a chance to listen to it (I.E. have my kindle read it to me) so that I could make sure everything was done right. With the migraines (thanks neck and shoulders) I was editing in spurts, and I wanted one solid read through. Now, I’ve set myself a 12 chapter a day limit so I don’t overwhelm my mind and start missing things. But my insides are eating at me, wondering why in the hell I’m not soldiering on. Sigh. But this is much better than my normal worries, which I’ve dealt with for so long I’m beginning to think they’ll never pass. I’m sorry you feel this way too.
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😦 I can understand your delay. I read pretty much every single blog post about 10 times before posting… and then there are the ones that I end up never posting at all. I say take your time. And I hope we both get a break from all the worries.
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Sigh. I agree. 😊
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This is so honest, all the best to you!
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Thank you so much!/
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I so hope you get some level of reprieve here. Oh, though head. Can be our own worst enemy, that’s for damn sure. 😕
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This will sound awful, but sometimes I wish I wasn’t so smart… so I could turn my brain off… or, well, it would already be off.
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Funny you say that. I made a post about that very thing last year sometime. I titled it Turn Down The Volume. Sometimes, it just won’t shut up. Night is the worst time. 😕
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Oh yes… nights are worse. I get a little concerned when the night thoughts are still there when I wake up… usually it’s better in the morning…
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I hear ya. 😕
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Hugs!
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Thanks. ♥
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Why are we always so hard on ourselves? Le sigh…
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Yeah… no one treats me worse than I treat me…
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So stop it 🙄
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Oh, I totally wish it was so simple!
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I know! Your appt. Went okay?
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Sitting in the waiting room right now…
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Blowing kisses ❤
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Well, it’s good, I think. A minor change with the stuff… but found out my NP is leaving. Which sucks… but there are 2 others there and they’re both really good, so I’m just going to one of them in the future…
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I’m glad! Hope that goes well 🙂
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Thanks… I think it will be okay.
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Beautifully raw, Sandra. I hope each one come to fruition.💜
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Thanks, Kay. ♥
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Of course!
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Are you stalking me? Because this sounds like me the past couple of days. I had a long drive on Saturday and realized that my hands were aching from gripping the steering wheel so hard – not because of any traffic though. Just feeling tense! Ugh. I just want to do nothing but eat taco salad and stare at the tv for a couple days.
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Do it! I hope you feel less tense soon. It sucks. I find that when I feel the most awful, I need distractions. Denial. Which of course is really unhealthy as it means I’m not dealing with the actual issue(s)… but sometimes, it’s just the only way. Plus cheesecake also helps. Sadly, I never have any of that around…
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It’s important to process and work through stuff….but it definitely can’t be done 24/7. A girl needs a break now and then! Or in just justifying my desire to not deal with it haha. Either way, I’m with you – I’m choosing distractions for now.
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I am having the worst freaking time getting to your blog! I actually had to click on one of your comments on another blog to get here! I couldn’t even follow the email alert of this post in my email! Stinking WP! Anyway feel this down to my toes today. Muse silent, confidence shredded, blah blah blah… Your words perfectly express it.
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That is weird. I wonder why. Other blogs, too, or just mine? I know people have been having follow/unfollow issues lately… I don’t think the ‘happiness engineers’ are holding up their end…
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I’m not sure about other blogs. I always visit you so I was sure something was up. It’s like every time they tweak the software it goes haywire
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They need to get their asses in gear! I have no idea what the hell I’m doing but they might as well hire me… I could probably do at least as well as they do…
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Hey that’s a great idea! I’m sure you’d be good at this!
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Yeah, if I can’t fix someone’s issue, I’ll just tell them to bugger off. I’m super professional.
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In a British accent. You can get away with so much more that way!
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Exactly. I can hear Spike (Buffy the Vampire Slayer) saying it right now… Of course, I’m not a dude.
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You need the female version of that!
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Maybe it would be easier if I was a dude
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Maybe…
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It’s so beautiful and sensitive ….
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Thank you…
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How beautiful & introspective… I love it… best wishes. Aquileana 🙂
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Oh, thank you so much.
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💜💜
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Beautiful piece! Love love love this
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Thank you so much!
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