In the middle of the night
Awake unable to close my eyes
I dread the brightness of sunlight
Because darkness hides daytime’s lies
I’d rather live in denial than fight
Twisted in sheets awaiting black skies
So I wait again for darkness and stars
And wonder when the night will be ours
Liam Sullivan's Ideas and Reflections
Wordpress simulcast of the official A to Z Challenge blog
the fictional journal of Katie K.
“Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope.” — Maya Angelou
Photos, art, and a little bit of LIT.
A Look on the Brighter Side of Life
what sandra thinks 
This is kinda sad. I’d imagine it’s not a rare feeling for a lot of people though. 😕
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I do seem to have a mastery of the sad…
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I’ve felt this way before too. It’s hard to imagine feeling that way long-term though. I know you’ve mentioned in the past about not being able to change your situation, but I wonder how long you can make that work. No judgement, just curious.
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I really don’t know. Maybe my messed up head thinks someday it will just change on its own… that what I have will somehow turn into what I want. But I’m probably just crazy.
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I don’t think you’re crazy, just optimistic. You’ll likely disagree with that assessment, and your writing may suggest otherwise. Maybe hopeful is a better word. But, this is your life too, your story. Don’t let anyone dictate what’s written in those chapters.
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I think maybe it’s false hope. I want the miracle, but deep down, I know it’s not gonna happen. Funny how I can write other people’s stories but I feel powerless to write my own… Wow, that was deep. 🙂
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You do have the power. It’s there, ya just gotta tap into it. Never lose that hope. It’s what will eventually lead you down your path, and not someone else’s. I guarantee you’re stronger than you give yourself credit for.
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Maybe I’m just incredibly lazy. If I need to do something for someone else, I’m good. But if it’s for me, I seem to lose the will to bother. See? Crazy!
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Hey man, you matter too. Never forget that. 😊
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Thanks 🙂
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You’re welcome…and it’s true.
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I agree….and have been able to relate at times in my life. Lovely expression of this feeling, Sandra.
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Thanks very much, Kay.
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You’re welcome. 💜
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Extremely relatable thought and perfect.
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Thank you.
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Maybe the feeling of sadness is bcoz of the beauty of the night which forces one to face the bitter truths of reality…. Well said….
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I think there’s truth in that. Thank you…
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Painfully lovely, as always, dear friend. Such talent you have ❤
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Thank you, Diane. You’re the best. ♥
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How are things?
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They are not fabulous… I am a giant mess over the job thing… I am hoping a move I final made on Tuesday will eventually help… still worrying about it though. I guess if I wasn’t, I wouldn’t be me…!
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That a girl! You took a step and that’s what matters xo
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I’m trying… ♥
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I’m glad ❤
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I’ve had many nights like the one you described and I can completely relate. ❤ Love your writing! How many years have you been blogging?
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Sadly, I think many can relate to this. But thank you.
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Oh, and I’ve been blogging for almost a year… Not sure if that’s considered a long time or not!
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wow only a year! You’ve come so far! Congrats (if it’s not random saying it out of nowhere) 😀
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Thank you so much! I am not sure what happened here… I thought I started blogging to post here and there and hardly anyone would even read!
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You happened! You write the content that all your readers want to read. 😀 I don’t post often enough, so I get a great deal of motivation when I see your regular posts.
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Aw, thanks. That’s so kind of you to say. I probably post too often! But when I don’t, I feel like I’ve let people down. Crazy, I know…
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Hello. I have nominated you for the daily quote challenge..:-)
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Thank you! I will have a look…
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BEAUTIFUL!!!! I love this Sandra! 🙂
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Thank you so much, Eric. You are so sweet! 🙂
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Beautiful work!
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Thank you!
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Sad, lovely, beautiful relatable words … you have a gift for poetry Sandra.
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Sad poetry, anyway… ♥
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Yes, how about you? How are you doing?
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I’m still trying to figure out how to move forward with anything when every time I try, I feel myself slipping into an anxiety attack. Only denial gets me out. But, you know, in denial, I am going nowhere… (and it doesn’t pay the bills…)
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At least you’re trying. Sending you hugs of support Sandra. Just keep going, one day at a time …
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Thank you, Miri (is that what people call you?? I’m never sure!). I appreciate your kindness very much… ♥
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Of course you’re trying. Never stop Sandra, that’s all that matters. And yes, close friends call me Miri xo
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xo
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This really resonates with me, Sandra.
I found this to be the most powerful:
“I dread the brightness of sunlight
Because darkness hides daytime’s lies”
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Thank you. I found some of these words scribbled in the notebook I keep by my bed… it must be something that came to me in my sleep…
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