It’s Friday. This is part 7 of secret admirer. ♥
[Previously posted: part 1, part 2, part 3, part 4, part 5, part 6]
part 7.
I couldn’t breathe. My hands were shaking. He didn’t even notice me. Only the sound of my keys hitting the floor caught his attention.
“What the fuck, Dan?!?”
I said nothing more. I just stared at his face. His unfazed, uncaring face. The face I wanted to kick… and never see again.
“Oh… uh… Amy. I didn’t expect you back…”
No fucking shit he didn’t expect me!
Before he said another word, he grabbed the head of the woman kneeling on the floor in front of him and pushed her away. Her mouth released him and he zipped his pants. He took a step toward me. And I took a step back.
“Don’t come near me.” I could feel tears streaming down my face and they made me even more angry. He didn’t deserve my tears. I didn’t want to give him the satisfaction – to let him think they were for him. Because they weren’t. They were for me. “Jesus, Dan! I asked you! All those talks we had! I fucking asked you if there was someone else. I wasted so much time trying to make this work. God, I felt guilty that I couldn’t fix it! Fucking guilty!”
He was speechless. And I didn’t want to hear a word out of his lying mouth anyway. I grabbed my keys from the floor and got the hell out of there.
My hands clutched the steering wheel. I was too upset to drive but I had to. I leaned forward until my head hit the wheel. I hated that I was still crying. Oh, Dan could have let every fucking woman he knew in his pants. I didn’t care. But I had been carrying all that guilt about the hours I spent talking to Greg. Talking, God dammit! While Dan was fucking God knows who… since God knows when. I never should have felt guilty. Never. And fuck Dan for stealing all that time from me.
I lifted my head and wiped my tears. After a deep breath that didn’t help at all, I grabbed my phone.
“Hi… I need help… can you help me? Oh God… I need somewhere to go… please…” I was sobbing. My words were impossible to understand. I knew that. But I couldn’t catch my breath.
“Amy? Slow down… my God… what’s wrong?”
I tried to breathe. I had to calm myself enough to speak clearly. It wasn’t going well. And I may have made my struggle to relax worse… because I didn’t call my mom. I didn’t call my sister… or my best friend. No. Without a thought, without hesitation, without even realizing what I was doing, I called him.
“Amy? Honey, talk to me… tell me what you need.”
Breathe, Amy. Talk. Oh my God… he just called me ‘honey’… Am I having a heart attack? I think I’m having a heart attack.
“Greg… I…” Breathe. “I can’t be here… at home. I need somewhere to go…”
“Do you want me to come get you? I can leave right now…”
“No… I have to get away from here.”
“Are you okay to drive? I’m worried about you…”
“I’ll be okay… as long as you’re not too far…”
“Amy… I’m not far. Meet me for a smoothie.”
I smiled. Through waves of tears and anxious breaths and possible cardiac arrest, I smiled. He made me smile.
“I’m going… right now.”
“I’ll be there.”
“Greg?”
“Yes?”
“Thank you…”
“Shut up.”
Only he could make ‘shut up’ sound like one of the sweetest things anyone had ever said to me.
I saw him inside by the window. He stared out into the fading sunshine looking for me. And when he found me, he stood and took a few steps toward the door. The look on his face brought my tears back. The worry, the concern. My shoulders rose and fell with my sigh. All I could do was look at him.
“Amy. Are you okay?” He gently laid a hand on my shoulder, waiting for me to answer.
But I didn’t answer. I didn’t know the answer. I sighed again and wiped tears from my cheeks, wondering when I’d ever be able to speak. But I didn’t have to worry. Not at that moment. He could see that I wasn’t ready. So he whispered my name. And pulled me into his arms.
To be continued…
what sandra thinks 
Seems so real, Sandra. I’m looking forward to the next part.
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Me too! Guess I better write it! 😀 Also… thanks, honey.
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Get to it! lol One more day until the big day! Have any plans? Any parties?
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Parties… 😀 you’re funny. I don’t think I’ve had a party since… maybe high school? They would have been really great parties during my college years but we were always on summer break by this point. But yeah… I really have no friends here (wow, that sounds pathetic) so no party. I’m just trying to keep my expectations low… because, well, it’s usually a disappointment. One year he forgot completely… until days later… On Father’s Day — then he remembered. Yeah, I’m treated like a queen here… 😐 (This is probably way more information than you wanted!) Honestly, thank God for my friends here. Maybe I should make a party post tomorrow. Will be difficult for me to feed you cake, though…
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By the way, you are more than welcome to throw me a party. 😛
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I just love last minute gatherings! 😉
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Good to know… Like I whined up there, it has been years since I’ve had a party… Of any kind. My preference these days would be a very small party… Birthday suit required to enter…
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Like in The House Party post? 😉
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But only two guests. Counting me. Abe I am never going to live that down, am I?
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Not a chance! But let the party begin!
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I’m ready… Don’t forget my cake. Or something else sweet to eat.
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Don’t forget the tequila. That gets me into the show a bit more. 😉
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I shall provide much Tequila.
(And I’m sorry I vanished… daughter came home from school in tears… broke my heart.)
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I hope that she’s alright. Classmates can be cruel!
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God, the poor kid is 8! Then I feel bad because she’s in tears so I’m in tears! I don’t think that helps her! My poor little clone. I hate people. Not you-people. Asshat-people.
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Oh, my, I love it. I hoped for something like this! (I have to tell you, I kept clicking on secret admirer instead of continue reading and was about to tell you I couldn’t get to part 7. Once again, operator error on my part. Damn these new-fangled contraptions, lol)
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Hahaha… oh, you’re funny! You know I used to link the “fiction friday” graphic to the post, too…But I found that week to week, I kept differing to update that link… And it would go to the wrong installment. Since I knew my memory wasn’t going to help, I stopped linking that. lol :D. And I’m glad you liked this!! Thanks!
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I’m in such a lazy ass mood about blogging, can’t think of anything good to write. Maybe I’ll just visit for awhile 🙂
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🙂 You know… the other night it was really late (well…early, like 2am)… And I had nothing to post for the next day… until I wrote “replaceable”… in minutes once I was in bed. My brain is weird.
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Yeah, I get that. I guess I’ll have to try– 😦
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You don’t have to! 🙂 Just find a funny to post! You always find great ones!
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Maybe…
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Awesome! I was hoping the husband would give her a way out! Now she’s free! Love, love, love it!
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Yeah, nothing like making it easy (well, easier)! Ahh… this is why I have to write (and write predictably, maybe)…. real life is never so ‘convenient’… I guess I want things to be easier somewhere!
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This could have gone so many ways… I thought maybe Dan had filled the house with flowers to make up to her OR he had cleaned all the belongings out of the house and taken off OR he was lying dead in the middle of the floor and Amy would become the chief suspect AND then she would start to suspect Greg…. (been hanging around Kevin too long) 😀
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I had a thought about some kind of murder storyline… But I’ve never written one before… and I don’t have the rest of this done yet so I’m kinda writing as I go… so writing something new to me would be a lot harder to write this way.
I actually panicked last night… because I’m not totally sure how I’m going to not fuck this story up. I have in my head what I want… But the more I think about it, the more I don’t think it’s good… Or good enough… Or enough… Or too much… Or… (you get the idea)…
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Don’t panic! You’ve done a wonderful job, so far. Besides you’re ‘playing to a friendly crowd’ here. We all want the happy ending. (In bed!) 😀
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Oh my God…. hahaha… that was a very good one! It’s not so much the ending… It’s the path… And ugh… I have no idea how to explain…. I think it has something to do with me not wanting to let go… and… yeah… I know I’m making no sense…
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Oh, I love it! Her thoughts seem so real. I’m so glad she called him. He wants to take care of her and now he gets the chance. “Shut up,” made me smile.
I saw you said you thought this was predictable, and while him cheating was one scenario that went thru my mind, there were many others. But there is a reason why romance follows similar paths- it works. We like these scenarios. And it’s the good ones- like yours- that put in details and realness to make the story into something special. I really like this!
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Oh…thank you! This is such a lovely comment. I try, sometimes, to go in a different direction than my norm, but it always seems to fail. So here I am… I’m glad it kinda works and people enjoy it!
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It definitely works! And I know what you mean- my unfinished stories are the ones where I tried something I wasn’t really comfortable with, lol. Have a great day!
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Thanks… You too! 🙂
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This just keeps getting better and better!!!!@
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Thanks Cruise-girl!! 🙂
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Began with a bang today lol. I didn’t actually her expect to come upon Dan cheating, even though she suspected it before I think. Happy she had Greg to run to as a friend (only for the moment) and I think this is necessary because it clears her conscience from just talking with Greg. Obviously, both her and Dan are in a marriage which isn’t working. Exciting. I look forward to this Friday’s!
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Thanks so much! I’m a little nervous because people seem to really like this and I really don’t want to disappoint! Also I’m crazy and worry about way too many things. 😀
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It will be okay. Don’t stress. Take your time you’ll find the right pieces of each Friday, even if you can’t quite do it each Friday. Your writing is awesome, and will turn out great no matter what.
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Thanks… that’s so nice of you! 🙂
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I’m lying in bed reading this on a lazy gray Saturday morning in Melbourne and what a way to start my weekend. This was so good, love the way the story’s unfolding. I can feel a big happy ending coming up. But I don’t want it to come too soon, figuratively speaking of course! Great writing. ♥♡
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Ahahahaa! Not too soon! Funny. I keep thinking I’m a little scared for the rest of this because it might be a disappointment! Plus, I haven’t written it yet, so… there’s that!
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No way! Nothing you write is a disappointment.
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I think I’m just feeling like this one cleared up the little cliffhanger… not sure I’ll have anything else so dramatic! Maybe I should ask my daughter. She is very dramatic.
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Good idea. I’m sure you’ll come up with something. Have fun.
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